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Hiding Addiction from Loved Ones

Discussion in 'General Substance Abuse Discussion' started by lonewolves, Jun 4, 2018.

  1. True concern

    True concern Moderator

    I couldn't agree more,addiction only want's one thing and that's everything you are or ever could be.Beautiful dog and the lady in the picture is not bad looking either
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  2. Cametobelieve0202

    Cametobelieve0202 Community Champion

    Lol thanks I thought Stella should be the featured as my profile. She was a gift from my parents and fiancé for my 18 months sober :)
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  3. True concern

    True concern Moderator

    Congratulations on your18 month's that's awesome,i have along ways to go before i get there but by the time i do i will probably run about 3'000miles lol.Stella does look comfortable in her socks i just picture her sliding every where on a hard wood floor.
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  4. Cametobelieve0202

    Cametobelieve0202 Community Champion

    Thank you but 18 months was awhile ago. I’ve had her almost 3 years now. On July 2nd I’ll have 4 and a half years sober. Time for a new puppy? And yes she absolutely hates the socks but they’re just too cute!
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  5. True concern

    True concern Moderator

    Wow 4 and a half years...That's definitely a goal i will shot for,i figure by then i should've ran around the planet twice lol but seriously congratulations that's something to be proud of for sure
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  6. Cametobelieve0202

    Cametobelieve0202 Community Champion

    Thanks, I am very glad you have become such a big part of this forum. I know you are helping lots of people by telling your story and sharing your insight. I am a little worried about your running, we as addicts have a tendency to become a little obsessive right? I thought I read a post where you talked about that all your running was hurting your knee. Anyway I hope your not over doing it. But if it’s helping keep you sober that’s a good thing. Also remember sobriety is also about good self care, we had been abusing our bodies while we were using, it’s time we take good care of them now :)
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  7. True concern

    True concern Moderator

    Yes you did read that,i am waiting on knee surgery but i keep running.I rely on it for sure it helps me release my anger and rage.I am having a hell of a time trying to learn to sleep again,it sounds so easy but i literally just created a new thread seeking advice on how to sleep.I've ran 12.08 miles in 36 hours and considering another 4 right now at midnight.It's hard to explain why i run other than i joke at times im trying to outrun the thing's I've done and the pain I've caused but honestly it's not a joke,i feel such anger in myself a fire builds inside and i take off running,i don't know how i will get past this but i can only anticipate my next move right before i make it and after 20 years of drug use it's what my mind expects so i get pissed off and run...I don't know what else to do
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  8. Josh111187

    Josh111187 Community Champion

    "Run Forest, Run!", aynd, so iye did.
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  9. deanokat

    deanokat DrugAbuse.com Community Organizer Community Listener

    @CMMW... Congrats on your 4.5 years! Amazing accomplishment, my friend! Just keep going!
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  10. True concern

    True concern Moderator

    Ya i know lol,i will never catch that dude...I don't know how his shoes didn't start smoking
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  11. jai

    jai Member

    I relate. My dad is the only person in my family that knows my whole story. I've kept my addiction private. Like I been reading in these forms there's a stigma around heroin addicts. The guy Im seeing right now has watched to many moves or something because he thought I would do ANYTHING for a fix because heroin is crazy addicting. I did some real crazy **** and I'm very lucky I didn't end up in prison or dead. I drew a line as to how far I would go to get high. Not a lot of peole understand that. I also don't want my friends telling my story because it's my story to tell. I will be honest if I'm asked but I'm not volunteering information to friends and family that wouldn't understand.
    Congrats on ur recovery
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  12. jai

    jai Member

    I'm having issues with the NA groups in my area. I did 90 in 90 I few times in recovery. I've had a lot of bad experiences with some of the leaders of these AA and NA meetingso in my area. I got clean on my own this last time and this is the longest I've been clean. I don't think aboutique going back out this time. I have a better relationship with my kids and family.
    I do want to make a difference I'm also looking into being a drug counselor. Dose anyone have information how to become a Counselor?
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  13. lonewolves

    lonewolves Community Champion

    I think it’s beautiful that you want to help others! I wish I had advice for it, but I’m up in Canadaland! I hope someone else here is able to get you some info so you can follow your dream.
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  14. jai

    jai Member

    Your in canada? I'm in Michigan I might be going to Niagara Falls this summer. My friend was not allowed in Canada because of a felony he had 10yrs ago. I'm kinda nervous. I had some real big problems a few yrs ago I'm afaid I'm going to have a problem at the border. Also I read about the treamental you have for opiates. I was going to go to the rehab in Windsor. The ibogain tratment
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  15. lonewolves

    lonewolves Community Champion

    I can understand your worry, because even though I know I won’t have any trouble at the border, I’m still nervous af to go over it. But I have anxiety about everything. I live a couple of minutes drive from the Alaskan border, and it’s such a small town that there is no American customs, only Canadian customs when you come back to Canada. At least that means half the anxiety when I go over.
  16. deanokat

    deanokat DrugAbuse.com Community Organizer Community Listener

    I'm in Michigan, too, @jai!
  17. Cametobelieve0202

    Cametobelieve0202 Community Champion

    They say take what you like and leave the rest
  18. Cametobelieve0202

    Cametobelieve0202 Community Champion

    Wisconsin over here! :)
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