I suffer from PTSD and horrible anxiety, depression and anger at times when I recall the innocent young, vibrant, go getter I used to be and how I'm allowing what someone did to me over 30 years ago, still affect me now, at 46. Psychiatrist put me on klonopin and hydroxyzine about 9 years ago and I haven't been able to go without them ever since. Went cold turkey one time and almost died in the bathroom of a business in Brooklyn. PLEASE DON'T EVER GO COLD TURKEY ON BENZOS!!! They've caused my body to get even weaker (particularly my nervous system). Can it ever be healed after taking klonopin for so long? And does hydroxyzine have that affect on my nervous system as well? Am I an addict or do I really need these drugs now, due to the damage they may have caused long term?