How? That's what I ask myself all the time. How did I get here? Father of three, still fighting cocaine addiction. 15 years into my addiction, I've just admitted that I'm an addict. The pain of many years of use is catching up, there s no getting through the pain of the next day without alcohol which always leads to more bad decisions. I hope for all of us that are fighting this thing, we win!! And the how is, never to go back!!