Hey, everyone. I am in a really dark place right now & I can’t turn to any family or friends. My entire life, I’ve been surrounded by addicts. My grandfather was an alcoholic, my grandmother was addicted to pills. I grew up, married a stable man & we occasionally smoked pot. This went on for about 13 years. No problems holding down a steady job, no problem with alcohol or drugs. October 2016 rolls around and I decide I’m leaving my husband of 13 years. There were a lot of reasons...the main being that we just grew apart. I created an account on Tinder & met a wonderful man (who I am now married to). He was an alcoholic (he’s been sober 14 months & 10 days). Let me clarify, sober from alcohol. We began messing around with various pills (OxyContin being the primary problem). We discovered that we could inject them & its all been downhill from there. This is an expensive habit that is taking a huge toll on mylife. I can’t tell anyone about this. I have no family or friends to talk to. We are spending upwards of $700 a month on this habit. And now I’ve discovered ecstasy which is sooooo affordable. I’ve taken ecstasy every day for the last 5 days & mixing it with Oxy. I want help. I need help. I want to stop. I’m so depressed. So lost & angry. I have to wear long sleeves to hide the marks. I never knew I could live with this much shame.