There are a lot of times I would commit myself into permanently changing it, but they don't last forever. They instead only last for a short time, weeks and months, but not in long term. I'm starting to lose hope, and it just gets so depressing. Any ideas? I don't also know to whom I can turn and ask for advice. I really want to strip away the bad me, but I'm just as always to weak to go for it for lifetime term.