I really did. I have been trying to get a hold of me and my newfound Ritalin dependency. Well I don't condone what I do or did but I'm down to 25mgs a day. Down from 120. So yeah i did. I live on property connected to my parents property. Together it's 120 something acres of land and I am not going to be able to keep up with all of it. So my sister and I are going to sell most of the un farmed part. We decided to go to the back 20 that we have not been to since we were kids. Well we were looking for a tree that we carved something in and neither of us remembered what we carved. We found the tree and it said my birthday 22years ago we picked plums. ...on our adventure I had to stop and catch my breath... I caught covid and am wearing a mask. We heard a noisy splash and it was consistent...upon her return she told me she found a spring. And she did! So cool! On the tree it also big b little s best friends. We reconnected today in a way like when i was just eight years old. That shot was half of today's dose. Im worn down. Ive been depressed. I told her yesterday I feel like 1 acre or a 1000 i am in prison...my son has to stay with his mom and he calls me wanting to come home. I cry daily. But today i found that the old joy i i seek through a needle isn't out of reach without one. Few more days till I get to an oral dose and stop. But I figured I'd share this with anyone else who feels alone today. I remembered life without drugs. That made me cry too. Happily.