I don't want to type this but I must

So I have conquered several addictive mountain's, they can all be found here on the site but though my main addiction is opiates,it's also alcohol. I am 5 day's beyond opiate detox and I feel amazing however the main crutch has returned and I know if I don't reach out now it will take me back down and I'm done,but I have a hot temper,anxiety not from this planet and without opiates my klonopin for anxiety is piss poor treatment.It mildly slows the anxiety but very mildly and I'm taking 3mgs aday yet still can't relax or sleep so I've been drinking a 6 pack for 2 days in a row to boost the klonopin and truthfully Xanax on top of the klonopin. I am wired for pain and battle been working on it for 3 year's or do but I don't want to fight everyone all the time anymore so this is me reaching out for help with alcohol the rest I've gotten under control for now.Please someone help me understand how to quit alcohol as it's the last of 5 hurdles.Thanks in advance

brother we spoke on the phone and i didnt even know about this. i am so sorry. i wish you had reached out then i didnt know about the xanies on top of the k-pins. i know and you know that that will make it a bit more uncofortable but here is me grabbing your hand when you reached out for help.
i noticed there are no other coments. if you want to respond here then i am available.
if you wanna PM me than im available. or just call.
love you man. you have beaten this before and you can again. now you have me in your corner where i have beaten this due to you grabbing my hand when i reached out. so lets talk bro.
what was it you told me one of my first posts was something like "Help! I'm out of Valium". bro it was bad...bucket under my head bad. so you know whatever you are going through im here for you.

I appreciate you and maybe it's a flaw but I ALWAYS try to be the STRONG one in everyone's corner yet here I sit 11:57am already 3 tall cans in,but day 10 no opiates

like you and @Onceaddicted77 told me when i relapsed on the coke shot the other day its where we go that matters not where weve been.
youve beaten a huge beasst now lets beat this other and not let past stuff get us down. cause you and i both know dwelling on the past will only continue to bring us down bro

Brother I will keep it real,YES alcohol has taken another bite out of me,NO it hasn't cost me anything yet but let's not forget as I won't it wasn't so long ago it put me in jail

1157 AM...im jealous.

wish it wasnt going on late afternoon here is what i mean

go to hard liqour and we both knwo thats a real probability

Bro it's tough,my day's are long because I don't sleep well so 20 hour's a day 6 days a week with 1 day a week I can barely stay awake....its exhausting

Hard liquor and it's a definite

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do you have taper plans?

You know by now I don't taper....i embrace the suffer.Its a disturbing thing even to myself but that's how I do things,it may have something to do with being beaten until I was 16 but physical pain is comforting and yea I read how sad and sick that is but that's me no Bullshit

i think that wanting this good life is what turned me onto drugs to begin with. but that was very very short lived.
even when i did that shot of coke my new maturity couldnt let me feel it like i did when i was new to coke. maturing late in life is what i believe i and a few others decided.

I feel the same in 80% of your statement, but what if you still struggle but always reinforce in a positive way?Does that make one better than the other?Genuine question again no offense meant

cold turkey is the fastest and if not dangerous IMO teh preferred route to go. it just sucks. but youve been through a wayyyyyyy hardere detox than this.

It's a fact and reality,20 year's as an active addict makes it impossible to mature,it's only once we start the fight that we begin to grow-TRUE CONCERN-

i dont believe if you counter negative WANTS with positve COUNTER MEASURES that could be negativa at all.
just as long as it doesnt become detrimental like say...blowing out a knee.

Indeed but I was younger,I won't lie there is something still within me that makes me feel invincible even though I truly no better

We all know I'm the "blow out the knee kind"