Hi In Need!
Aren't we all in need of something?? .....and sometimes that need is "loving ones self. We hate ourselves, and shouldn"t we, after all ,we are so weak minded, we are on the verge of losing the people most special in our lives, then where will we be---just deeper in hell, since that's the road we are taking anyway.
We are so despicable we want people to be "mean and vicious" to us since we believe (hope) that will finally shake us up. Ya know I don't think anyone can be more "mean and vicious" then we already are to ourselves.
Alcoholic ,in recovery 30 years....not bragging just telling you what finally made me hit that wall and start over.
"LOVE", O yeah ain't that beautiful, NEXT??....seriously
Everyone always told me I have to love myself----IF I could love myself I wouldn't be a weak and sniveling alcoholic ,
or drug abuser, or gambler yada, yada, yada. I was spectacular in the 80's, everyone wanted to know me , always at the best parties or Disco ( you might be a little young for "Disco") It was a haven for addicts, we could drink, snort,shoot up, double down---whatever we wanted because we All were.
I can say spectacular because it was the 80's and I am now 65, not so spectacular. LOL
I lost my father a 6 and my mother was my world ( and alcohol) . I got into a pretty bad accident drunk. No one was hurt but what if it had been a carload of people (Of course they would be children in my world)How could I face my mother knowing I was a drunk and had hurt or killed someone.
This women that gave up everything to raise me.....It would simply break her heart, and that my friend is what you have to find.. If you can't do it for yourself, think of someone you love very much, and how does your life HURT them. Maybe that will do It
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