Cocaine is taking over my life and its ruining my relationships with the closest people around me. I've been through some very hard, dark times and sometimes i use them as an excuse to take because i'm feeling sorry for myself at the time. I know its time to stop but my willpower just isn't as strong as i need it to be. I just need you guys to be as mean and real to me as possible just to make me upset and guilty for taking this evil substance before its too late and i'm laying 6 feet under the ground. Guys be as mean and nasty as you need to be...GO
@In need of change... Welcome to the community and thanks for sharing your story with us. I'm glad you reached out for help with your cocaine problem. That's a courageous and important first step. I'm not going to be mean and nasty, my friend. I'm just going to tell you what you asked me to tell you: You CAN stop. Will stopping be easy? Nope. Will you sometimes feel like going back to coke because the quitting is such a bitch? Probably. But everything you go through and feel will be entirely worth it. Living without a dependence on cocaine will mean a healthier, happier, easier life for you. You will no longer face the physical and mental side effects that cocaine brings. And you'll be free of the potential legal and financial nightmares that cocaine can impose on people. I suggest you find an addiction specialist in your area and set up an appointment with them. They can assess your situation and suggest the best next steps for you. You can also look into support group meetings like Narcotics Anonymous (NA) or Cocaine Anonymous (CA). Being around people who know exactly what you're going through and feeling can be incredibly helpful and comforting. You CAN quit cocaine. But you have to want it, and you have to be willing to work hard at it. If you want to quit, and you're willing to work hard, you CAN break free from this nasty drug. But if instead you keep doing what you're doing...well, then you might very well end up laying 6 feet under the ground. We're here to help and support you however we can. You can come here and lean on us anytime. I'm sending you lots of positive vibes, hope, and encouragement.
You can do it.there is help.it took me 20+yrs to get help for opiates and now I've been on MMT for 5yrs,it was hard to give it up but its a vicious cycle.good luck hang in there
@In need of change... Just wondering how you're doing, my friend. Check in with us if you get a chance.
I'm in the same boat. I recently snorted 3.5 grams of cocaine and drank an excessive amount of alcohol at the same time all by myself. I'm honestly scared to death of doing that to myself. It's been 3 days since I've done it and I am adiment on never touching it again. The reason I'm so freaked out is because my mind hasn't felt the same since. I'm worried I gave myself permanent brain damage. I need some serious wisdom from anyone who is willing. I just want to feel normal again
@Twain11211Betwix... I'm sorry you had that experience. I'm not a medical doctor, but I think it's unlikely that you did any permanent damage to your brain by doing what you did. That said, I think your body is going to need some time to recover from the incident. If you're not feeling better in a few more days, or if you're overly concerned now, I would consult a doctor. No need to be embarrassed or ashamed of anything. Your health and peace of mind are the most important things. Sending you positive, healing vibes.
Hi In Need! Aren't we all in need of something?? .....and sometimes that need is "loving ones self. We hate ourselves, and shouldn"t we, after all ,we are so weak minded, we are on the verge of losing the people most special in our lives, then where will we be---just deeper in hell, since that's the road we are taking anyway. We are so despicable we want people to be "mean and vicious" to us since we believe (hope) that will finally shake us up. Ya know I don't think anyone can be more "mean and vicious" then we already are to ourselves. Alcoholic ,in recovery 30 years....not bragging just telling you what finally made me hit that wall and start over. "LOVE", O yeah ain't that beautiful, NEXT??....seriously Everyone always told me I have to love myself----IF I could love myself I wouldn't be a weak and sniveling alcoholic , or drug abuser, or gambler yada, yada, yada. I was spectacular in the 80's, everyone wanted to know me , always at the best parties or Disco ( you might be a little young for "Disco") It was a haven for addicts, we could drink, snort,shoot up, double down---whatever we wanted because we All were. I can say spectacular because it was the 80's and I am now 65, not so spectacular. LOL I lost my father a 6 and my mother was my world ( and alcohol) . I got into a pretty bad accident drunk. No one was hurt but what if it had been a carload of people (Of course they would be children in my world)How could I face my mother knowing I was a drunk and had hurt or killed someone. This women that gave up everything to raise me.....It would simply break her heart, and that my friend is what you have to find.. If you can't do it for yourself, think of someone you love very much, and how does your life HURT them. Maybe that will do It
@Maytrix... Thanks for your insightful comment. And congratulations to you on your 30 years of recovery. That's amazing! I think people who read your post will definitely be inspired. Thanks so much for sharing with us!