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I need to go to treatment but..

Discussion in 'General Substance Abuse Discussion' started by Ijustneedhelp, May 21, 2017.

  1. Ijustneedhelp

    Ijustneedhelp Member

    I'm already going downhill. I'm drinking every night, sometimes getting black out drunk. I'm abusing pills, smoking weed and it's starting to effect me different, and I've been doing cocaine. My family doesn't know, or at least doesn't know how bad it is. And I'd rather them not know until I actually start getting help. It's gotten to the point where I've stopped caring about certain things. I quit my job, knowing that I have bills to pay, and my car absolutly needs repaired asap because it doesn't work at all. I'm digging myself a hole and I'm scared I won't be able to get out.
    Any words of encouragement, advice, etc would be appreciated. I'm hoping my a friend of mine is picking me up tonight so I can talk to her about it and possibly even get the treatment started. I don't want to live like this. But it's a Sunday and it's getting later in the evening and the only 2 places open for evaluation and treatment close around 9 or 10.
    I also have a question. The pills I have been abusing are benzos. Out of all of the things I listed above, the pills, alcohol, and cocaine, could I be getting withdrawals from those and if so what are they like? Because I've been puking once in a while. And I'm not sick. My aggression is starting to show, I can sleep for hours when I'm not on anything, and I even caught myself thinking about just ending it all so I don't have to deal with this. Please, just opinions, advice, words of encouragement. I'm desperate to talk to someone (that isn't family) about this.
  2. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    @Ijustneedhelp... Welcome to the forums. I'm glad you found us and shared your story with us. That's a big step and I'm proud of you for taking it.

    Benzo withdrawal can definitely make you very sick. Benzos are nasty drugs and should always be stopped by gradually tapering off of them. If you stop cold turkey, the withdrawal symptoms can be nasty...and dangerous. This article on benzo withdrawal may be helpful to you:

    We're here to help and support you however we can. If I were you, I would consider seeing an addiction specialist. They can assess your situation and recommend the best next steps for you. They can also help you taper off meds so the withdrawal symptoms are minimized.

    I'm sending you lots of positive energy, hope, and encouragement.
  3. leewriter1

    leewriter1 Member

    Congratulations on having the self-awareness to know you have a problem. I wish my wife and myself had possessed that level of self-awareness but our egos were too strong to admit to anyone, including ourselves, that we had a major problem with alcohol. Go see an addiction specialist and be 100% truthful about the level of your alcohol and drug abuse. The specialist will help you determine what steps are next. All addicts and alcoholics possess the same fundamental flaw: they would rather escape the truth of their lives by escaping via a substance than address the issues in their lives. At some point, it will be necessary to figure out what aspect(s) of your life you're trying to escape. And then you'll need to be proactive about addressing that issue(s) instead being reactive (by getting drunk and/or high). And if you're not a spiritual person now then in order to sober up, you'll need the help of a higher power. Mine is God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. Tap into every resource you can get a hold of to sober up. You can do it. Never give up. Pray often. Ask others to care for you. Give back after you've freed yourself from the prison cells of addiction/alcoholism. You'll win if you believe you can win.
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