I have realised that I cannot drink alcohol There were periods I would drink some cocktails at home every day at the evening after work. And I thought that it is ok. I do not have a problem. Until a few times I wanted to drink alchohol at 2 in the day, after work. And sometimes it gets crazy... I cannot drink heavy drinks, vodka etc. But I drink them. There been times I start to drink, and I just cannot control myself. I act CRAZY. Talk ****. And do not remember anything afterwards. And this time it was at my cousins wedding. I got so drunk.. I AM SO ASHAMED OF MYSELF. I cannot stand it. I cannot even work my thoughts paralize me. And I have decided not to drink, because I just cannot stop when I start. But everytime I make this decision not to drink , I fail... and then comes next time I get drunk, and I am stuck in this circle. And I do not know how deal with my emotions and shame now. Everyone in my family sae how drunk i was. And I think they think that I am an alchoholic. Which I think I am... please help me.. with some advice or experience?