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I need to understand this terrible thing sweeping the planet "The Sex Trade"and human trafficking

Discussion in 'Share Your Story Here' started by True concern, Jun 6, 2019.

  1. True concern

    True concern Moderator

    So this is a difficult thing for me to even begin to discuss,but I need to know.So recently I responded in a thread about "Porn Addiction"Most there seem to believe men who watch porn are likely to become "Rapist"which is total bullshit,however it got my mind considering other potential scenarios and certain "Could be's and Maybe's"and honestly they have me extremely sad and upset as I started wondering,"Is it possible that some women in porn are victims of the forced "Sex trade industry?"This question and potential possibility have me feeling like a total scumbag as I do watch porn from time to time(No sex in 5 year's)because legally I'm still married and just can't bring myself to cheat,however the recent thought that maybe I'm watching women do thing's on screen sexually that they are being forced to do have me feeling like.....I can't even describe it, the feeling is extreme sadness and hurt as if this is really happening I'm going to be crushed because I can't say it any clearer and I will only be this specific in this scenario and it may be dumb to say however I feel this strongly about it.If I ever got my hands on a known sex trafficker,rapist,or pedophile I would accept the rest of my life in prison and I would remove them from life,I want to use a more specific word but I believe it is something I could be arrested for.I don't watch porn often and with this potential scenario I will have no choice but to no longer view it at all,so what do I do?I can't and won't cheat while I'm still married but let's be realistic 5 year's is an insane amount of time for a man in his 30's it's basically unheard of,but anyways I'm more curios if anyone has any facts on the proposed question and scenario as it's got me feeling like I should hate myself the way I hate those I mentioned above even though I have never and would never hurt any female,child,or male for that matter.....I am just sick of wondering"Could it be"

    Thanks in advance for anyone with facts and information on this topic as I need to know,it's part of my healing process because I can't live with the nagging question.....but what if
  2. Dominica

    Dominica Recovery Advocate @ Moving Beyond Codependency Community Listener

    @True concern if it bothers you, then stop.... i don't have any facts on this topic, but it wouldn't surprise me if this was happening.
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  3. Joshstillclean

    Joshstillclean Stupidity Exists - Fact.

    Sorry but you,said to be blunt when I answered so yeah. They are. There was recently a documentary on YouTube red (premium or whatever they call it, also prime) where a woman was forced to "screw for the screen".
    She came to America under the assumption that it was a one time thing and she would be married then and have a green card (or citizenship)...
    Anyway she talked about how they shot em up with tar heroin till they were hooked and on and on.....
    Apparently it happens a lot in southern Florida and California.
    I found it while watching a documentary called death on I95, its all about how I95 which runs up the east coast and all the way to the west coast has a "hub" where its all connected.
    Sex trade, even slaves, but especially heroin, fentanyl, and cocaine from these small islands near Miami. It was scary to me because I personally have passed out in some of the streets they showed. It was hard to watch but i watched it all the way through just because it was in Atlanta and I wanted to make sure I wasn't caught on camera.
    California supplies 62 percent of the worlds porn I read the other day.
  4. Joshstillclean

    Joshstillclean Stupidity Exists - Fact.

    I will say this too, I go for very long periods without sex. I do believe you should be married, I'm not perfect. If I have a girlfriend I will have sex. One time I have had a friend with benefits...that actually very recently has come back to bite me.

    Its just wrong.
    Anyway when I do find an attractive woman I tend to make up for lost time....
    But having said that I am not one to span a lot of "alone time" or have a "one some" if you know what I mean.
    And I personally find that its a good thing. It makes me want to excersise more. Honestly I think I make more testosterone because of it. My beard grows faster than when I'm having sex...I tend to eat healthier.
    I was wondering if mabey it was the bodies natural way of getting me healthy so I would attract a partner.
    Just something to think about.
  5. True concern

    True concern Moderator

    Fuc*.....I can't fuc*in believe it!!This sh*t does bother me...alot.I had never considered the possibility until I kept hearing about sex trafficking on the news.I feel terrible I ever watched any of it
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  6. True concern

    True concern Moderator

    No need to apologize, yes I did say be blunt.Like @cheffy and @Dominica have pointed out in a separate thread...Yes I do have a lot of questions, yes I am trying to understand the world and beyond:confused:,I can't help it I want to know answers to questions most never consider.Will it change the world?No but it will help me change,help me see potential mistakes before I make them,it will help me to understand what and why to stay away from certain thing's, so yes when I ask a question I want the truth that doesn't mean I want to be talked down to(not saying you have done that just saying)but yes I do have more work to do on me and the truth will help me
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  7. Joshstillclean

    Joshstillclean Stupidity Exists - Fact.

    Yeah. I haven't watched any porn in a long time. Ill be honest there's been the occasional like hi try to and just can't type thing. Honestly its so rare for me I really have given up.
    I think last month I youtubed like topless,beaches or something like that...
    That's was the extent of my porn lately.
    I'm being honest here I just can't.
    If its not the real thing I just don't find myself wanting it.
    Ok WRONG I WANT IT ALOT...BUT ILL HOLD OUT.
    Yeah man the sex trade industry is huge I thought it was like second to drugs worldwide. Mostly in America.
    Don't really know where I got that from. And a lot of guys are forced into it also. I mean you gotta take pills to keep it up porn style. Doing that damages you.
    I posted somewhere on here another rant today after I got mad...
    Anyway it has to do with me literally being sold/traded for drugs. I was sold as a sex object. Whatever I was made to take hurt badly. It ended me up in the hospital. I'm told im fortunate my prostate didn't have to be removed.

    This stuff is no joke.
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  8. True concern

    True concern Moderator

    Lord forgive me for ever watching porn.There will be no more of that.This is going to mean I need to either try and fix my marriage, which isn't happening because I want better for her than I can give or I'm going to have to make an attempt to slowly start meeting other women which is a nerve racking thing to me,I haven't dated in 20 year's, I don't know if I remember how,especially considering most of the women I dated growing up had issue's not that I don't but I want to find something healthy this time both for myself and whomever I may meet
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  9. True concern

    True concern Moderator

    I remember you telling me about that and I am so sorry you had to go through that, I am so sorry
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  10. Joshstillclean

    Joshstillclean Stupidity Exists - Fact.

    We all have stuff we need to work on.
    And something I told myself the other night before I spoke at the NA meeting was at least I'm here because oh realize I have issues. That's a while lot better than before when I thought I had it all under control.
    That helps me feel better about myself.
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  11. True concern

    True concern Moderator

    Makes since man,I am working on not being so stubborn, I hate to admit I can't fix me by myself however it has become clear...i cannot
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  12. Joshstillclean

    Joshstillclean Stupidity Exists - Fact.

    Long time ago brother. Sorry I ranted about it again. Like i posted on your page something just got to me today. But I didn't think I had told that one. So dismiss that. Mabey its something I texted you. I don't know.

    But it really does eat me up about all these false accusations because when it happened to me I couldn't get to a hospital fast enough in wanted all the DNA and evidence I had on me to stay there until they bagged it. When you go through that embarrassing is not what is on your mind.
  13. Joshstillclean

    Joshstillclean Stupidity Exists - Fact.

    Yep, for a mechanic I'm pretty busted myself.lol
  14. True concern

    True concern Moderator

    Man I feel terrible about this and though it's unrelated it makes me feel even worse about the porn thing,I mean I hope to GOD it didn't happen but from what I've learned today they could have recorded you and put it on the world wide web and idiots like myself up to today would have never known you were being forced and now I want to hunt these kidnappers and rapist(But it will pass I'm just hurt,angry and disgusted)right now.My brother I am so very,truly sorry..this actually has me in tears
  15. Joshstillclean

    Joshstillclean Stupidity Exists - Fact.

    Umm unless you are into some seriously nasty sick sh!t (which I'm not talking freaky stuff) I highly dought This was put on the internet unless it was one of those dark web sites.
    And I even dought this.
    Man these people were sick, nasty looking, junkies.
    Lots of blood(i was beaten, alot).
    I almost didn't live. I managed to work a brick loose from the wall...
    Look, you just really need to take my word for it. You have NOT seen this.
    This goes beyond anything human.
  16. True concern

    True concern Moderator

    Brother no I'm sorry I wasn't very clear I was just trying to say in Theory it's the same in my head now meaning FORCED IS FORCED I understand and again I'm so so sorry that happened to you just the way my head work's FORCED IS FORCED there is no that person is less of a monster than that one if 2 separate people force two separate instances in my head they should both pay the same price.Does that make better sense?
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  17. True concern

    True concern Moderator

    Good God you are breaking my heart,you are so incredibly strong,brave,and resilant,the strength you hold within is unrivalled by anyone I've ever known in my life.
  18. Joshstillclean

    Joshstillclean Stupidity Exists - Fact.

    Ill agree with that 100%.
    I just thought you meant literally saw me personally...
    Ummm no no one would watch that but I understand. You'll feel better for not watching it.
    Like i said the closest I can get to a picture of a naked woman is a selfie at a topless beach. Mabey its because of what happened.
  19. True concern

    True concern Moderator

    I love you my friend and I am so happy you got away and I pray they pay dearly for what they have done to you
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  20. Joshstillclean

    Joshstillclean Stupidity Exists - Fact.

    In not that strong bro. I had to give it to God. It was eating me alive.
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