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I Wake up every morning in Extreme Pain

Discussion in 'General Substance Abuse Discussion' started by DoxyMom, Jan 11, 2020.

  1. DoxyMom

    DoxyMom Community Champion

    I know exactly why I became addicted to pain pills and then heroin. I'm in so much pain right now I could scream. The pain runs from my back all the way down my leg to my ankle. It will subside in an hour or two. It's all I can do not go in the kitchen and take both bottles of methadone. I won't. I haven't so far, why would I now? I'm getting older and as I age this pain will only get worse. I have no idea how to live like this. I've already been living in chronic pain for 13 years. I guess I have to remember that eventually it passes. While it happens I don't feel like I can take it anymore. It will come back later today when I clean the bathroom. I know why I became addicted to pills. This is the time of day I would eat a bunch of them to stop the pain.
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  2. Onceaddicted77

    Onceaddicted77 Spam fighting Moderator & Realist Community Listener

    Sorty to hear that @DoxyMom I can relate I have a labor intensive job I'm a hard surface installer on floors and walls and I was in a rollover accident that I thought I walked away from unscathed but a year later i was wrong. Messed up a few lumbar and I too have sciatica down my right leg to my ankle
    That kills me till my kratom kicks in every morning.

    Depression can be a symptom of emotional or physical pain I hope you get yours under control too as i know how you feel. Stay strong :)
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  3. DoxyMom

    DoxyMom Community Champion

    My physical pain is just that. I had an abusive ex husband. A bad car accident and I suffer from Chiari Malformation. This is a brain and spinal disorder that causes pain among other horrible symptoms. I get the added bonus of severe CSF headaches that doctors don't understand. I'm a woman so I'm faking or depressed. Is it any wonder I'm an addict? I get dizzy and nausea goes along with it. Throw in some aphasia, trouble swallowing. I could go on and on. I have a spinal cord implant that helps with some of my pain but my spine also can hurt from neck to my coccyx. It's going to be fun when I taper off the methadone.

    I felt the need to vent this morning as I was hurting. I feel better now but as I'm in the middle of cleaning the bathroom it is coming back in a different area and won't subside until I can sit down. I try and take breaks in the middle but it doesn't help.
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  4. Aunt T

    Aunt T Member

    I am so intune with you. I too suffer from back pain and I am constantly looking for relief. The one thing worse than the pain is knowing that the bathroom or house is a mess. I cannot tell you anything you haven't tried but I can tell you that, I understand and you are not the only one.
    My hope is that one day there will be a real relief to us and that women will be treated as women medically, instead of just "smaller men", it is frustrating that even today with all the science, women are still diagnosed as being Hysterical.
    I have found relief watching someone else cleaning.
    You are stronger than.....
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  5. cheffy

    cheffy Community Champion

    Doctors should prescribe pain meds to be used only when you're actively in pain rather than a pill every x hours. Of course that 'only when in pain' idea can be abused but I think doctors would have a lot better view of how you're taking them and also a better feel for how bad the pain may be. If you're out of pills after 15 days of a 30 day prescription they would know it and be able to deal with the problem.
    You could try one of those empi electric stimulators, where you put electrodes at each corner of the source of the pain and then adjust the electric current. I'm not sure that it works on all types of pain, e.g., arthritic 'joint' pain, nerve pain, surface pain. I was prescribed one for my arthritic pain and it worked pretty well . In any case, you could turn it up to maximum power and I guarantee you won't be thinking about your back pain. :)
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  6. True concern

    True concern Moderator

    @DoxyMom I never realized how much never ending only gonna worsen pain you were in,I'm having a hard time finding something reinforcement wise as to your sober time,not because I'm not proud of you because I am,but yes it is no wonder you became an addict and I sympathize with you and my heart hurts knowing You've earned the right to be known as sober even if you take something for pain......im stuck in between encouragement towards just keep going and see a pain Dr for some relief.I know this thing called sobriety is important to you and your committed to seeing it through and I commend your inner strength,in fact I admire the courage you have shown,all that being said I have to ask,is this stigma of addiction worth the never ending pain?You can hold your head high and feel good about yourself even if you are prescribed something for pain,I mean my god the list of physically debilitating medical issue's you are always going to have would put anyone on pain meds so your not the "Typical"addict....Bad choices, party animal,etc you are actually the exact reason these meds exist...for PEOPLE in constant pain with debilitating health issues.I stand with you and would think nothing less of you if you got help and I don't think a person alive would think less of you.I realize I have done the opposite of what I normally do and so be it,you deserve to live a life less painful than you live now.I apologize if I said the wrong thing here it's just my opinion and how I feel.Take Care Of Yourself.
  7. DoxyMom

    DoxyMom Community Champion

    @True concern thank you. I'm kind of like a food addict. They still have to eat to live. I have to learn to live with it. I usually suffer in silence but was having a bad day. I can't touch pain meds unless I end up with a terminal illness. It is just a fact of my life. I've come to terms with that.
    @cheffy I have a Nevro spinal cord implant. Look it up. If I didn't my pain would be worse. I use ice and heat and change position. When you've dealt with this as long as I have you learn all the tricks.
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  8. Davers

    Davers Community Champion

    I can relate (to a point), my body issues are nowhere what you describe.

    Mentally in Bad but a tad better , it is day to day .

    My last 3 months have been real hard , my ulcer has been so bad It wakes me up a 4-5 am then I take Pri-lo-sec, 2 otc tabs a day , just finished a month of 1 prilosec it seems to have helped but I been sleeping sitting up & that has had helped.
    So everyday I have to get up cause of the pain , I take my dose + Xanax + 800 mg of Tagmet (been taking this everyday for 11 + years ) .
    OK also since at-least 2012 I had a routine of going metal detecting every Sunday morn & 1 or 2 times a week.
    I'd get up before light and be on one of my sites at dawn 20 o -32 o , I could handle it now 50 o feels like 32 o & I freeze.
    Now every morning or afternoon it's takes 3+ hours to stop the pain & by the time I feel better my wife need's the car to go to work at 4 pm . Hence my stubbornness has not let me see my PCP yet , I promised my Counselor 'actually I said I'd try". Well Friday was Full Dose day , so i'm running manic but I like it cause I get things done and can talk to anyone ( like when I started taking pills ) + I've had ..For Real "restless Testi disorder " & It tout re for me to drive ?

    Hence I think i'm afraid to get up & go as I used to in the mornings cause of this strange issue.
    All this has caused a depression to set in but I'm gonna try my best to NOT let it get worse & I hope to get to my Dr this week .

    I truly hope you get to feeling better.
  9. DoxyMom

    DoxyMom Community Champion

    @Davers thanks. There is no help for me but you need to get to the doctor and find out what is going on.
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  10. Davers

    Davers Community Champion

    Yes I know, ill try to get in or go to the ER,

    Ill let you know asap.
    Great day to ya .