ill sum it up basically, i was suicidal by 12 so i thats when i started smoking weed. i had managed to negate the ever present peer pressure untilo i had severe dental issues and kept getting hydrocodone, i had been taking it as labeled but after 3 months of this when they cut me off it was hell. so i had astarted taking 5 tramadol at a time and that got me used to drugs a bit, i decided myself to try ecstasy but i was a bad point mentally and it really did help at the moment. after that my home boys mom got cancer so i put him up n my trailer while this was happenening and she'd give her pills to him so he could sell, they made her sick. my first time doing a real opiate i did far too many roxi's 30mg oxycodone instant release. i dont remember how many but i remember being at a homies parking for wifi sniffin them, my homie wass just feeling generous and didnt think id keep saying yeah if i couldnt handle it. but i lost all control of my neck and remember being like oh god i fkd up. had my bro drag my to my room and leave me sitting upright n my bed. soo0n after that i was getting 8mg hydromorphone and 200mg morph sulfates time release. and i kept reading online of peaople sayin g hydromorphone was safer to inject than black tar and just ate into the whole its amazing concept, becuz it was. but the after math was hell. i was about to turn 17 my first time i'v' by the time i was about to turn 18 i was so tired of getting dope sick, thought the only way id get clean was if i killed myself. had 400mg of morph litteraly secs from doing it when my bro stormed in saying oh **** no, i have no idea how he knew i his it well, spent the whole week at peace smiling, knowing id stop hurting soon. well spent my 18th bday n the behavioural health center and diagnosed schizophrenia bcuz of all the drugs, im not schizo tho and they just made me way worse so instead of sticking with the treatment i went with same homie to go do meth. first time around a group and it was hella fun. but then that got bad to obviously, i was always taking something or wahtever to get high, all the popular street drugs ive done n excess except pcp ketamine DMT or mescaline. everything from 2c-b, to bathsalts ive been there. but 2 years ago i finally got **** together. but this last month i turned 25 and i spent almost the whole month wired. i decided im sick of it and came here. idk what to say really other than ill be sober soon but i feel empty right now. been up 5 days and feel like death. broke my pipes flushed my sack. i dont wanna risk what i have.