Before I found this forum, (before, during, an for 3 years after my addiction), I could not understand what people got out of this. Talking to other people about your feelings and your pain was my idea of hell. Using words like "strength, recovery, or even recovering addict"'sounded so cheesy. It almost seemed like a cult. It sounded weak and desperate. Well, here I am now. I'm telling strangers about my feelings. I'm usind words like recovering addict, sobriety, and strength. And I have devoted myself entirely to what I once regarded as a cult. These words, listening to people talk about what they've been through, and opening up to people about what I have been through has allowed me to remain a recovering addict rather than go back to being just an addict. It's crazy how something can change so drastically in you mind so quickly.