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I'm a active meth user & new to this page are they anybody who struggles daily with the same thing?

Discussion in 'Methamphetamine / Meth' started by nightmare101, Mar 19, 2017.

  1. nightmare101

    nightmare101 Member

    ive been using meth for a year and a half i am 20 years old i have a son that suffers from my bad choices my addition has took everything my car my family my friends even down to my clothes, i went to jail in Georgia for possession of meth it is a felony it was my first felony i was stuck down there & didnt have no body i live in KY so i was a good way from home all due to chasing the dope. i love the high its a everyday thing for me but hearing others stories it helps,, so whats yalls story
  2. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    Welcome to the community, @nightmare101. And thanks for sharing your story with us.

    My son has struggled with addiction for about 12 years. I've taken it upon myself to advocate for people who struggle with addiction and mental health issues, because I know how difficult those things can be...not only for the person struggling, but for their loved ones as well.

    You are so young, with so much of your life ahead of you. I hope you get to a point where you want to stop using meth. Besides the high, there isn't really anything good about using meth...or any other drug, for that matter. And your son deserves to have a healthy, clear-headed mom who is there for him.

    I'm keeping good thoughts for you. And sending you lots of love and light. Know that we are here to lean on anytime you need us.
  3. nightmare101

    nightmare101 Member

    Thats why i am looking into rehab programs cause he deserves my all, i come from a long line of addicts my mother is currently a active user Meth & Suboxone is her choice my grandmother raised me so i dont wanna make the same mistakes she did for him. i wanna quit
  4. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    It's great that you want to quit, @nightmare101. I'm praying hard for you.
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  5. hello im a meth user as well im 39 yrs old . I,first started using meth at age 27 i too lost everything my kids my home everything. Ive been using for over ten years. Im unhappy and cant seem to get my life back on track i believe what keeps,me using meth is the pain the anger and the hatred i have for myself. Ill never forgive myself for the life my kids have been living for the past ten years. My hearts in constant pain . All i want is to get my life together for them although their older now. I want to at least be there for my grandkids sense i messed up as a mother to my kids. What i can tell u is that if decide to continue to use ten years feom now ull find urself in that same position if not worse. Think about ur kid n how ur use is affecting him the main reason i believe i continue to use is maybe because the guilt the pain i feel when i look my kids in the face because theyve been through so much and because of my addiction . Ill never ever forgive myself the guilt is killing me daily so i continue to use to stop feeling the pain n to make me forget about it all for a while because i dont want to hurt no more. I feel this guilt n pain is going to cause me to take my own life one day because is so unbearable i cant take it i feel my only reason for livig is gone i lost them and whats worse is i didnt even try to get them back. Thats how messed up the dope had me n still,has me
  6. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    @unhappy mother... Thanks for sharing with us. I'm sending you lots of positive vibes and hope. Please don't be too hard on yourself. We are all human beings and we all make mistakes. You can get your life together if you set the goal and are willing to work hard at it. I know you can.

    You are not alone, my friend.
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  7. Lostboy8731

    Lostboy8731 Community Champion

    Your most certainly not alone @nightmare101 . I was sober for 2.5 years as mentioned in my story and recently fell again back into my addiction. Your in the right place. I just joined few days ago and not once has anyone been spiteful or harsh. Infact everyone here is really supportive and loving. Anyway hope your safe and alls well. Here if you need to chat ever ttfn
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