The following is what's going on in my life with addiction.. I'm sure I'll be judged by many.. Or I'll get no response only because people don't want to hear it.. They just look a obituary and say how sad it is that someone so young died from a drug overdose.. The struggle is so real no one who's not a addict will ever get it.. I've had people tell me they hate drug addicts.. It's sad because we are people too I include myself in this as well.. I've had my battles with drugs.. It all started Over a injury..2 years ago I had sugary on my leg.. That's when it all started.. I never took pain pills. I always thought what the **** do people see in it.. Now I get it.. I had another surgery three months ago.. So of course I'm back on pain pills ... It's a real struggle..but that doesn't make me a scumbag.. Anyone who knows me knows how beautiful of a person I am. This can effect anyone.. Doctors, Lawyers,Judges, Prosecutors,police, CEO's of major companies, Nurses,... The list goes on & on.. Drugs DON'T discriminate... It's the Most powerful thing I've ever had to fight!!! This is worse then being a alcoholic! The grip that it has on you is tremendous!!! It's a force to be reckoned with & it's unbelievably Evil.. It takes your breath away literally.. I don't want to Die... I Want to see my kids graduate. I want to see my grandchildren & hold them... I want to grow old with my Wife & yell at her on my Rocking chair! However if things keep going the way they are I'll more then likely Die.. I can't help it I need it... It's my lover, Friend, it's always there for me when I'm down.. Yet it's killing me slowly & I know it! I realise it's not truly my friend.. So in closing I'm not a Dirt Ball or a scumbag... I'm a loving & caring person who has people who love me Dearly.. I'm a Loving Dad who has wonderful children & a Beautiful loving Wife.. I have a House it's not a mansion but I've put memories that will never be forgotten in the house. I just wanted to make it clear that I'm not a waste... Should anything happen I just want everyone to know who I am & was!