As some of you who read my post know, I have a gambling problem. At 19 years old I took out a very large loan for my age and now I'm fighting to pay it back as I have gambled it all away. I need to fight myself everyday to keep myself out of the casino or other forms of gambling and I hurt myself very bad financially before gaining the slightest bit of control. I know this community is about substance abuse, the adrenaline at a blackjack table is my drug of choice. I am smarter than this, and I can't figure out why I cannot stop completely. I've just recently opened up to my family about this and now I am really trying to make an effort to get everything back under control.