I recently posted my story about my boyfriend who has some addiction problems related to his lifestyle (money, power) and drugs. It is titled "loving someone with addicted tendencies" in the @share your story" section. We broke up but have still been talking and i have been trying to be supportive while still setting boundaries in order to protect myself and to eliminate any enabling. But there have been times when he won't answer his phone, mainly because he is either sleeping or has just separated himself from his phone. Last night he was driving to his hometown 4 hours away from him and he didnt answer his phone for 3 hours. On top of this, he was also with a person who i know is toxic for him (he says this person is trying to get clean also, but i really dont think he is a good influence on him). This caused me to have some sort of anxiety attack due to past events when he didn't answer his phone while he was under the influence and in danger of harming himself. When he finally answered, i lost all the control i have been working on and allowed my anger and panic to show while crying and hyperventilating to him on the phone. I feel so terrible about it because i know this does not help him or myself-especially because he is showing signs of recognizing that he has a problem and wants to change. Has this happened to anyone before? And if so, what did you do to help yourself when you were in this state of panic?