Okay so I've been using prescription painkillers for probably the last 12 years. I went to rehab in 08 and relapsed shortly after. Fast forward to today. I have a great boyfriend whom I've been with for 4 years and a awesome 10yr old son. Besides my addiction, life is great. I made the decision to go to rehab and am scheduled to be admitted on the 27th of July. My boyfriend whom has had 2 back surgeries takes norco and oxys for his pain. I am prescribed 120 norCo a month which I take in a matter of 6 days. Then I proceed to steal his pills. Obviously, I know this is a problem....I just feel as if he doesn't support me and I ALWAYS feel as if I'm being judged. My concious is heavy. I know he loves me. He made a comment to me today along the lines of "Ya kno rehab starts when yr ready for it to start. It's not a date on a calendar it's a change in yr life..... " First of all I know and understand this. I want to be sober, more then anything else, but the agony of withdrawl is keeping me from starting now. I just wish he could understand....I don't have many friends for support and I want to be able to talk openly about my addiction with him, but I always end up feeling like a bigger piece of **** after we "talk"