When you can't go to anyone to ask for advice for a belief that you are either going to be ridiculed or you will not be understood, how are you supposed to deal your own scuffle? What I do is I put it into writing. I would write as if I'm talking to someone who's very concern about me. I know that whoever is that isn't in existent. But I firmly believe that there will come a time that one will read it, understand me and find inspiration in my own reflections, experiences, aches and sentiments. I am hoping that there will come a time that that will be a source of strength for others who are struggling the same as I have. That's how writing serves as an inspiration - I believe that I'd be able to help others while giving myself a relief. So it's not just solely for me.