I do not mean to put so much doubt on my mother but I really am started to believe this to be true. I love my mother even through all her flaws. I am no where near flawless to judge what or why she has continued to abuse herself they way she has pretty all of my life. Ok, so my mother hasn't really been apart of my life because her addictions to drugs (various) and abusive boyfriends. My mother suffers some mental issues because of abuse from her childhood and from herself as well as others. She has always made an effort to contact me every once in a while but she never has anything positive to say. My mother now has cancer. I am afraid that I will lose her to soon and it saddens me that she has never been able to break away from the cycle that she has continued for so long. I do not think she enjoyed her life I am to far to be there for her and I honestly don't know what else I can tell her without breaking down myself. My sister has claimed that she has disowned our mother and will not have anything to do with her. I love my mother very much but I think she is hopeless and trapped in her storm. I can't help but cry and feel useless as her daughter.