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Is this meth? Something else?

Discussion in 'Methamphetamine / Meth' started by Get_awaycar, Jan 1, 2019.

  1. Get_awaycar

    Get_awaycar Member

    I will try to make this short as possible. I've been with my husband for 7 years now, and we share a 5 year old. Right before I got pregnant, he completed inpatient rehab for heroin. Not the best timing for having a child, but it is what it is, and I don't regret it now at all. She's the best thing to happen to me/us.

    I didn't know he was using. I'd never been around heroin or any drugs, really. In hindsight, there were many red flags and due to a few relapses years ago, I think I'm very knowledgable on how he acts on heroin/opioids. He took suboxone briefly, but quickly stopped, and has been using kratom for years now. He swears by it.

    Starting roughly a year ago, I have on numerous occasions found a crack/meth pipe in his pants pocket. I've called him out and I've taken them silently. He says that's how he uses adderall.

    Is that a thing? I'm reading conflicting information. Do people smoke/freebase adderall? And no this is NOT a marijuana pipe.

    He acts relatively "normal". He seems/seemed more distant. At times more irritable but nothing like super alarming on that end. Always. ALWAYS on his phone. Rarely sleeps with me anymore in bed. I don't think he sleeps much at all, but I have no idea since I'm in bed with our daughter.

    A friend says he would be super sexual, which I haven't noticed. Hopefully I'm not oversharing, he still has sex, but he cannot maintain an erection. He had this issue on heroin, but it was different. I know without a doubt, this is not heroin. He does not nod off or act super sweet and lovey, etc. I assume it was the high making him that way in hindsight.

    Now it's the opposite though. Rarely sleeps. Other things I've noticed is he gets itchy and red skin but no open wounds. His teeth look the same maybe a bit of staining. Again sometimes more irritable. Very distant. I'm sure I will think of more later.

    Earlier he left and came back from somewhere. He went into the restroom and I'm vigilant of this for his past. I went in after him to use the restroom and that's the first time I smelled something. I cannot describe this smell.

    Is there any chance this is "just" adderall?
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  2. Aodafml2

    Aodafml2 Senior Contributor

    Sounds like meth /Ask him to be honest, nobody likes to admit they have a meth habit, I know if I was called out by someone I'd try the adderall excuse. Meth just don't sound good,( for obvious reasons) it has the stereotype attached to it...hopefully he'll come clean to you,,,I'm assuming,,,,,good luck,
    Is the pipe a stem or bubble. Curious.
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  3. Get_awaycar

    Get_awaycar Member

    It's bubble.

    And he won't under any circumstances, admit to something like this. This isn't my first rodeo with proof of something. Last time I did ask him, in a non confrontational way, he somehow spun it into me being ungrateful about how hard he works. I don't know what else to do.
  4. Aodafml2

    Aodafml2 Senior Contributor

    Well to prove its crystal, next time u find a bubble, look for crack back, where the meth re-crystalizeson the glass. No denying that, it's pretty obvious what a meth pipe looks like, but if u havnt seen one??? Google images,,good luck.
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  5. Dominica

    Dominica Recovery Advocate @ Moving Beyond Codependency Community Listener

    @Get_awaycar hey there. thanks for reaching out. i'm not sure.... i don't have exp with meth at not the best person to answer. i do hope he will be honest with you. it's not going to bode you well to have to be on edge, snooping around all the time....that's no way to live!
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  6. Dominica

    Dominica Recovery Advocate @ Moving Beyond Codependency Community Listener

    addicts can certainly turn the attention off them onto others in a quick minute..... i hope he will want to stop using whatever he is using..... take care of yourself... if you find yourself really struggling, there are some support groups that might help you... safe place to share and get feedback and just be sure you're indeed taking care of you and not letting his use/behavior take your joy, peace, sanity, etc.
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  7. Lynnette

    Lynnette Member

    I’m sorry your going through this.
    When I had doubt and cought my husband he swore to me he was taking adderall.
    I was clueless. I believed him... until finally he admitted to me it wasn’t adderall... it was meth! I guess he thought adderall didn’t sound as “bad”.
    Well when I was on his case everyday about him being sober that’s when he finally admitted it wouldn’t be so easy for him bc it was something worse.....
    it probably is meth :(
    He let me distroy the pipe he had and it looked like a bubble. It was the first time ever seeing anything like it. It scared me and I cried my eyes out. I hope the best for you and that he will get on a road to recovery for his family.
  8. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    Welcome to the forum, @Get_awaycar. I'm sorry for what you're going through with your husband. I don't have any experience with meth, but it sounds like @Aodafml2's insight may be helpful. Maybe @True concern can weigh in, too. I urge you to focus on taking the best possible care of yourself and your daughter. Al-Anon or Nar-Anon meetings might really help you. And you should consider setting boundaries for your husband, too. With him using drugs of any kind, it's not a good environment for your daughter to grow up in. You may want to pick up a copy of the book called Beyond Addiction: How Science and Kindness Help People Change. It's written specifically for partners/parents of people struggling with addiction, and it's full of very useful information.

    We are here for you. Always. You are not alone. We will help, support, and comfort you however we can.
  9. True concern

    True concern Moderator

    If it's crack it will be an open pipe on both ends with one end having some sort of material to place the crack on,if it's meth it will be a bubble pipe with a hole on top of the bubble end,and I do believe you can smoke or inject Adderal but I have never seen it so maybe check around on that.As far as the way he is acting it definitely sounds like meth,I do hope and pray thing's improve for him however you must take care of YOU and your daughter first. Unfortunately any addict will only seek help once they are ready and sometimes it takes a lot for the addict to want help so hopefully you can get him to see how it is effecting both your lives in a negative way and he will reach out for help.I hope this helps you in some way. STAY STRONG AND GOD BLESS
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