There is no one person who has put it all out there on this site the way I have.I lost everything but my stubborn asss has said from day 1 I WILL NEVER GIVE UP!Even to myself these words seemed profound as they seemed to be a lie and unrealistic....Yet I posted on,continued to see the Dr (For my head)No lie and finally after many years...I talked to my grandkids,got pictures sent to me of each and I owe it all to first God second lithium which has at this time crippled my Bi-polar disorder....So I say to you all struggling with addiction SEE A PSYCHIATRIST but be 100% honest or they can't be effective in your lives.I lost a marriage of 20 year's because I was an ignorant, stubborn, FTW,Asshole and once they vananished like steam off the mirror after a shower...i decided...I decided I was REALLY gonna fight, not for my life....but for their lives!Analyze that statement for a min......What we absolutely love we neglect!Now look at you're dope sack and ask yourselves...Is this love?The confusion should be setting in.You love the high but not the dope....so how do we find a center without the love of the high?It's a tricky question to answer,often involves INTENSE EMOTIONAL PAIN...And I understand sticking that gram in you're arm...ive done it and it left me chasing what I truly love,put me in fits of rage that scare most human's but alas for myself it took (God-Lithium-A voice-some photos)And love rang in my ear's,my heart,my soul.....For several year's I've posted all my pain and sorrow but not tonight.The family I lost picked up the phone,sent some photo's, made me cry.....ALOT.And I've never been happier.Each person's struggle is unique to the circumstances around them,each different in various ways but as I've stated before....HOLD YOU'RE HEAD'S HIGH,REPRESENT EFFORT OTHER SIGH AT,AND TAKE YOU'RE LIVES BACK,YOU ARE NOT LESS THAN RATHER MORE THAN....YOU KEPT FIGHTING AS OTHER'S POINTED AND JUDGED....AS YOU ACHIEVE LET THEM REMAIN THERE POINTING,PUSH HARDER,FARTHER,BEYOND WHAT THEY COULD EVER IMAGINE AND WHEN YOU HAVE FINISHED PICKING YOURSELVES UP...GO BACK TO THOSE WHO WERE POINTING AND OFFER THEM HELP!!!!!!!!!YOU CAN,WILL,MUST DEFEAT THAT BAG.....FU*K THAT BAG.I BELIEVE IN YOU,WE ALL DO..BELIEVE IN YOURSELVES BECAUSE THAT'S WHERE THE LOVE IS....
STAY STRONG AND GOD BLESS YOU ALL
Last edited: Apr 21, 2020