I should have known. But I did not. My drinking became a problem. I was backed into a corner filled with nightmaresh thoughts and feeling. But despite this I did not know I was an alcoholic. Not until AFTER I became sober. Until that moment (and it was an actual moment of realization that I would never drink again) all I really knew was that I was never going to stop drinking, indeed being really drunk all the time. If you get the impression that I am not sober because I tried hard or found the right method, you would be correct. I say that realizing that it sounds dangerous. It sounds as if there is no right plan to follow. I mean there was a miracle. By that I mean a spiritual event.