So many times I have been saved from myself. And this thread did give me a platform to open up the other night. I really was in a bad way emotionally, and it came on fast too. I wasn't used to that. Would I have followed through and drank? I don't know. I did put my shoes on, I did grab my wallet, and I did get my keys, all while trying to talk myself out of it. Ironically another voice was trying to talk me into it. You all who have kept up with me know the hell on earth I went through getting off of oxycontin, heroin, all that stuff. You would think I would not ever think twice about it again. But I do. Why? Because I'm an addict-that's all I can say. I have no good answer. I know that I was on the fence when I wrote that. I was scared too. And again, @True concern thank you for that. Your words mean a lot to me and they always seem to come at just the right time. You know me very well. You know that a sack of dope in my pocket and a needle in my hand would not end well for me. So a mere thank you may sound shallow considering that's where I was headed. But like I said you know me well. And you know that that thank you carries much greater appreciation than any words can convey.