Hey all, so I just started using this shi@ around a month ago. I have been using every day. when I started I'd do a bump in the a.m. a nooner & 1 in the p.m..then another around midnigbt.(roughly). Of course I built a tolarance and lost my dopamine so Im currently using just under a half g. a day. My question is. is that considered to be alot? I need to get off this stuff and been reading the horror storys on withdrawl. I've started a taper and trying to only do it 2 times a day now.. Any advice or input from someone that's been here. would be appreciated...thanks so much!!!
@Aodafml2 Hey there. This is definitely not my department for giving advice as I have no experience with it. I have heard horror stories on withdrawal as well. @True concern will be able to help you out a little bit better on this end. I want to be the one to encourage you to keep going. Do your best to remember that through the crappy time this is only temporary and freedom is on the other side of this withdrawal. Try to remember who you were before you were addicted. Remember that good guy, that good soul who didn't sit around thinking about drugs or using drugs. Make it your aim to become that guy again...free from the grip, doing whatever it takes.... And know we are here!
Thanks again for your support..I wish I could remember me b4 it all started. For now I'm wanting to remember how I was 40 days ago. Before I had this evil meth monkey on my back. then I'll have the cravings to battle and i can work on my alcoholism. then after a really long battle with those 2 hopefully I'll crush this suboxone dependency..The first 2 I feel ready. and positive I can do them. (I have to) the sub, to be honest I know exactly what that is and the duration of time, very fricken hard...I didnt want to tell you know who that I've tried kicking opiates many o times and failed... if you read this @Lo$er. Sorry it is the worst (keepin it real)...and I am weak to opioids. anyways Dominica, and anyone else that may read this, thanks for your support it truley is awesome!! I have a plan I start In my present work my wayback in the order i found these drugs and conquer them harder than they did me...so easy to say....staying positive....thx all
So the thing about meth is it's a head game (So to speak) there is no physical addiction like heroin or another opiate and many people new to the drug who try coming off it associate the intense physical pain with physical addiction especially if they have been through an opiate detox in their life before but I am hear to tell you truthfully as I have detoxed off both separately and the meth detox is painful simply because of the lack of sleep,food,and the excessive movement-muscles used while staying awake so long,even getting 3-4 hour's here and there isn't enough to heal the body..its barely enough for the mind but I'm sure your starting to see that considering your month long binge.So if you were to stop today in all honesty your going to sleep,eat,restroom,repeat for about 4-7 straight day's. You will be sore for awhile after(muscle loss) but physically you won't feel like your dying.The hard part after this stage is learning how to deal with the emotions and mind games we play with ourselves. So is a half gram alot?For your 1st month Yes half gram is a lot but it gets to be a lot worse the longer you go and before you know it your well past that amount.If you can sleep and eat for a few days in a row and when you do this you are going to feel very aggressive once you wake up..This is when you really need to pay attention as you said you almost wanted to pick up a small case!Be careful I recommend sleep and eat and once you wake up and feel aggravated, that's the time to hit a meeting. STAY STRONG AND GOD BLESS.
Thanks True concern. that's all I wanted. not what i wanted to hear per say. aahhhhhh why do we do this to ourselves? (yuo dont have to answer that) oh well. I have some good news. I just got off the phone with my caseworker and I'm getting the insurance i need to go to detox. without it they want $700 a day....yeah ok... But now I go mon.morning to get approved and start my stay. from there if I have a choice I'm gonna go back to the Chris Farley House Of Rebos..( where I was before but had dads cancer going on) it's a great place I think....so I'm stoked to have medical overlook me while detoxing...so should be 90 day with extension if needed. Thought I would share something positive with ya...I'm looking forward to this. my muscles and $hit.are alredy beat up. I want that crap outa me....all uphill from here..Hey, thanks again for the reply..have a good one...
@Aodafml2 That's wonderful news!! So glad to hear this..... Keep in touch as you can, ok? We like having you around here!!
I am happy to hear you got approved,also very happy to hear your looking forward to going to rehab.I pray it work's out for the best and I will definitely be here to support you and I know you can do it
@Aodafml2... I think @True concern has shared some great insight with you. I'm glad you've started a taper, and I hope you can be free from meth soon. We're definitely here to help you any way we can.
I appreciate your encouragement and support. thank you and yes his info was what I needed. all 3 of ya have been wonderful in this short time I look forward to tell ya my pos.progress. thx