Hi, while my addiction has come down lot, it needs to stop for good. I recently got married and my partner knew about my drug past as I wanted to be honest with her, but I always kinda knew I would relapse somewhere, I am addicted to 3MMC (like cocaine) I know I can stop, but then I just be like one more won't be bad, but now it affects my partner and I feel so bad and guilty for it knowing she comes home from work and see's me in a state, I can't hide it from her because I feel guilty, she is the best girl I have ever had from everyone I have been with, so I am wanted to stop the relapse for good for her and myself. It's so annoying as I do everything else good, I look after her, good to her parents and friend, always being the white knight with her and make her feel loved, I myself don't do clubbing, drinking and certainly no messing around with women as I have strong loyalty like that, but I absolutely hate myself for this one problem and it's major, it basically destroys everything good I do, I just want to stop and have no more relapse again. What do you suggest I do? I need some free rehab advice, i am from the UK and live in Leeds. I am very serious about wanting help, I can't trust myself I love her to much! I no doubt want to stop for good when someday we try for a kid.