How do you plan to invest your life in the the next six months? In recovery, and wanting healing from any form of substance abuse: a plan and a purpose to better your position--your circumstance-- your life to freedom is worth looking into. Putting some slow but surely and careful thought and drug-free management does go a long long way to real happiness. Along the way, there will be failures and mistakes. But it doesn't really matter. What matters most is what and how you hope to do and be in the next step... and the next. There are always tomorrows of better future for you. Good on ya', Friend! I wish you well.