@Lonely... You have to do something so that you and your kids aren't living this way. You and your kids shouldn't have to go through hell every weekend just because of your husband's addiction. I like @Emerson_B's suggestion of getting someone who's close to your husband involved in this. I also agree with @jmontero31088 with regards to the enabling. Letting your husband behave the way he does or giving him pills is just pouring gasoline on the fire. It also gives him absolutely no incentive whatsoever to change. Sometimes we have to try and force our loved one into wanting to change by taking steps that we are afraid to take. If nothing changes, nothing changes. Continuing to pray for you and your kids.