@S24... Welcome to the forum and thanks for sharing your situation with us. You are most definitely in a difficult situation.
Loving someone suffering from addiction, or with addictive tendencies, is such a challenge. Love is powerful, and sometimes it can trump all kinds of negatives a relationship might have.
That said, remember that YOU are the most important person in your life, so you have to take good care of yourself and make sure you don't forget that you have a life to live, too. It's very easy to become addicted to a loved one's addiction. I know, because I did exactly that with my son's addiction.
I think you did the right thing by leaving him, at least for now. For you to keep subjecting yourself to the things you were going through wouldn't be fair to YOU.
Even though you left your boyfriend, that doesn't mean that you can't support him and help him get better,
if he chooses to do so. The decision to change his life is up to him. We can't control someone no matter how much we may want to. Who knows? If he decides to change and you see evidence of him turning his life around, you
could possibly get back together (if that would be something you'd be interested in). But right now, I think you're doing the right thing.
I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Bravo to you for taking care of you. We're here to support and help you any way we can.
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