I've been an addict for 15 of my 26 years on earth. Adults fed me pills and drinks at a young age. I have withdrawn from heroin, benzos, and alcohol more times then I can count. Never touched meth. Until a year ago. I used very little once a day put it in a pill, suddenly I could think, my anxiety was gone. I was able to get a job, take care of my home, get full custody of my child. But I need to stop, due to the yearly drug testing for custody court. And I need to just stop for good. My fear is, for the first time in my life I think clearly, all my anxieties, overwhelming thoughts. I even sleep now. All the things I was told meth would cause. I used to chug nyquil, chasing it with benzos or whatever after being up for 3, 4, 5 days, and that was before ever trying meth. Anyone experience this? Am I just trying to hold on to my addiction? Or has anyone had this experience?