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"Meth" The untold Truth

Discussion in 'Methamphetamine / Meth' started by neighborsboy, Jan 1, 2015.

  1. neighborsboy

    neighborsboy Member

    Hello. I will share my story in segments. All I ask is that you please do not judge me. Here goes. This is not easy for me as I have never even admitted that I was a junkie. I know meth is bad and it tears up communities and destroys family...which is one of our very basic living structures that we as humans need to be happy. I mean truly happy. I went from doing just a little on the weekend just to get more work done. At least this is what I told myself, to using every second of every minute of every hour of everyday. It consumes your day to day activities, be it work, play whatever and it becomes NUMBER ONE! The realm problem with it other than the obvious, is that it takes ones long term goals out of the you truly live day by day. There are a lot of people who use it as excuse for everything that they do wrong, I.e. steal,rob, or whatever. In fact, and here comes some brutal honesty, it really just accentuates ones character, that is lying inside oneself just waiting to come out. You ever heard the saying "Drunk mans words are a sober mans thoughts!" Kinda the same thing but on a self destructive level. I have never stolen from my parents... although most of meth users have stolen from their parents.
    I did the drug because news flash I LIKED IT. There I said it. I to this day like it... but I have realized that it hurts me, and my family so I choose not to do it. I had to make a few decisions. 1) I NEEDED TO BE IN CHARGE OF MY LIFE 2) i WAS HURTING EVERYONE THAT I LOVED AND LOVED ME 3)QUIT, PRISON, DIE
    Closing for now but everyone think about number three and I will continue a little later on. Thanks everyone "Be Easy!'
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  2. ThatKidWithTheFace

    ThatKidWithTheFace Active Contributor

    The saddest part about that story is that I know it oh-too-well. "Truly living day-by-day", I've been there, man. Once you get your fix, you can actually start your day, but before that it's hell.

    Tweak is a hell of a demon to have on your back, but all demons can be beat.

    Keep your head, man. It'll all work out.
  3. neighborsboy

    neighborsboy Member

    Thank you for reaching out and just letting me know that it will be alright. That stuff is everywhere and everyone is on it, or they know someone close to them that using. I would just like to say to anyone..."If anyone out there knows of anyone that is using "Meth," and you care about that person at all, even if you absolutely despise them, talk to them about the choices they are, or have been making and maybe , just maybe you will reach them before they are to far gone. I will advise this...if you start out threatening them, i.e. calling the cops, telling their mother or father, you get the idea. You have lost the battle before it starts. One has to remember in the user's eyes there is "NOTHING WRONG WITH IT!" So threatening has never or will ever work. Thanks"Be Easy!" ;)
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  4. neighborsboy

    neighborsboy Member

    Hello again everyone. Here goes another segment... just hope I have to finish. The number 1 issue last time was that," I needed to be in charge of my life." How did I accomplish this goal. I packed what little belongings I had in my 1992 model Toyota Camry that I just bought about 6 days before I left for $600. I HAD TO MAKE A CHANGE. So I decided that I was leaving my hometown or would be dead or in prison for a long time in no time. The only parent I have left is my mother. I have hurt her over and over with this issue. She was about to turn 75 years young. She had seen enough. I could not fathom the thought of her passing on and still worrying about her youngest son. She raised me right, no drinking , arguing, always worked hard which made me truly know what it is to love oneschildren and I seen first hand the sacrifices she made for my brother and myself. My father and her divorced when I was 10 months old. She did it all by herself. I told her several times that she raised me right...but I made my own decisions but she still directly blames herself. Enough said. I had to be at least a days drive away, by that I mean 24 hrs. driving time or it would not do me any good. I am from northwest Georgia...served in the U.S. Army. I served in the Persian Gulf War against Saddam who was leading Iraq. I am not a weak individual and can do just about anything. I had never lived where it snowed. Out of all of this I decided to go west to at least Colorado, but ended up northwest of that state in an area where it snows an average of 240 inches a year. Oh yeah I have a little dog that I brought along with me. Only had about $840.00 dollars, free govt. cell, few cloths, 3 gallons of water, $2 dollar bag of dog food, and myself with no radio, no air not even a spare I headed out and I HAD TO MAKE regardless of everything else I am not a failure. I knew no one en route of this journey and that is what I wanted. Drastic change is done internally. Ones mindset has to be in line. Anyone ever heard the saying "Birds of a feather flock together?" I had to leave the flock in order to live and it is lonely here but I am making it and my mothers voice has changed. I am being the man she raised me to be. Thanks gotta go i will finish later on. " Be Easy!" ;)
  5. ThatKidWithTheFace

    ThatKidWithTheFace Active Contributor

    I know what you mean about everyone around you doing it. That can be the hardest part. Half the county I live in is on the stuff.
  6. Winterybella

    Winterybella Community Champion

    I am completely taken in by your story. I am a parent and I am always interested in what makes the young mind tick. I have a son who says he's never done any drugs and I believe him. I have other relatives and young ones around me who do drugs but I don't know that any are trying to quit.

    I am glad you are at a place where you recognise the need to make some serious adjustments to "save" yourself. I am so happy for you and I can only imagine how much joy you will bring your mother. You might be lonely there, but you are not alone. You have a new community of friends and family right here. Looking forward to your next "segment".

    Be easy!!
  7. neighborsboy

    neighborsboy Member

    Hello again everyone. I would like to thank everyone for the positive feedback I have received. It truly means more to me than you will ever know. I would like to finish just by saying that I can hear the difference in my mother's voice, when I call her and that to me means more than anything I can imagine. I was conversing with her the other day and she ask me if I still liked living where I am living and of course I said yes. I explained to her that I had to make the drastic changes that I made just to live. I have always heard the saying "Mama knows!" Well they truly know more than one might think. She proceeds to tell me everything I am thinking, was thinking and the thought process before, during and after the move even though we have never discussed it. I tell you what, I never thought I would hear that feeling of happiness in her voice again. I know we miss each other and love each other very much. I must say that the decisions I made to get me to this point is why we are where we are, and no other reason. So far she is in perfect health. I have a plan to move back closer to my home town just so she can see first hand the man that she raised me to be. I do not want to reveal my plan, because it is an internal goal that I have made for myself. I will move back just as fast as I left once the timing is right. Out of all of this I would like to add, that no matter who, what, how or why? People use drugs, every case is different. I feel that a person has to want to change, inside and that no amount of rehab is going to help them. The best thing I could advise if you know someone needing help... is just to talk to them. Ask them why? When?and so on. Once they realize how they are effecting the people around them maybe just maybe you will be able to help them. It truly is a one way spiral downward regardless of what anyone says. Prison is no fun nor is being a convicted felon for the rest of ones days. So, I feel DAMN LUCKY to be where I am today. I just thank each day for who I am and where I am going. Drug free is the only way to be. Take care all and I will post again soon. Thanks for all your support and remember just, "Be Easy!" ;)
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  8. Winterybella

    Winterybella Community Champion

    I can't begin to tell you how my heart rejoices for you and your mother. I hope I am around to rejoice with others around me who pray that their children would made that decision to change their lives for the better. From all indications "it's not an easy road", but I believe it is a battle that can be won.

    I congratulate Neighborboy.
  9. neighborsboy

    neighborsboy Member

    I would like to add that I started using in 1997. I made this drastic move I speak of in May of 2013. So we are talking about damn near everyday for 16 years. I truly never thought I would make it past 2009, which I turned 40 years young. I have done a lot of STUPID AND SORRY things... but I never used my addiction as an excuse. I mean if I got beat up or I did the beating up, I never just said ,hell I was high. That is the easy way out in which we all know this drugs does different things do effect users different,but I have been hungry and did not steal food. So I know first hand that a lot of peoples actions are all ready built up in them and they are just acting them out while they are high hoping everyone will buy it. NOPE, a judge will come down with a firm hand either way. I had a good friend of mine who would steal to support his habit. He got told on to the police. They were waiting on him shot through the door of his pick up truck(which was loaded with stolen metal), ended up shooting his right index finger off(Shot through the windshield) and he got hit again in the side of his hip. Ended up getting 5 years to the door, for aggravated assault on an officer. While he is in, his mother passed away from a long bought with breast cancer. I should also mention he lost his dad during his first incarceration while he was only 19 years old. I have not talked to him since his prison sentence started. Hell, I would not know what to say. He is a great guy, when he is not using. When he is , I really don't understand him at all. Well, gotta go, I would like to thank everyone for letting me vent, it truly helps my struggle everyday. Oh yeah, just looked him up on the web, he is still incarcerated. I hope he makes a change when he gets out. If not I give him less than 6 months from his release date...he will be back in again for a long, long, time, "Be Easy!"
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  10. Winterybella

    Winterybella Community Champion

    Keep telling your story. I am glad you are at good place in your life. I can't help but be sad for your friend. It really hurts when otherwise good people make silly mistakes that could ultimately ruin their lives.

    I am sure you would know what to say if you saw him. They tell me my world does not exist but I believe it's never too late for people to turn their lives around. There may still be time left for your friend. You might very well be "voice" of change for him.
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  11. alfonso87

    alfonso87 Member

    I appreciate you sharing your story. I've had some on and off experiences using methamphetamine myself. I also used productivity as a justification for using it. For me, it was very easy to get hooked on meth, and to be honest, it feels really good to use the stuff. If I think about it, even today, if I was in a room with someone offering me meth, it would be hard to say no. You should be proud of being able to get clean from meth,its a huge accomplishment and its not easy to do.
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  12. I am sure what you are doing is and was hard. And through what I have read, I can see you are a very strong person. It really takes a lot to pack up and head out not really knowing where you are going. But YOU took charge and did what you had to do. As a nurse I have seen how hard it is for people to get away from that nasty stuff. Although you don't know me, I am so so proud of you and what you have accomplished. Keep up the great work. Prayers for strength..
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  13. neighborsboy

    neighborsboy Member

    I would first like to apologize for not posting in a while. I know this may sound kinda corny, but it "REALLY, REALLY" means a lot to here your positive words of encouragement. I would like to thank each of you for just taking the time to comment on my situation. It truly touches me deep down.
    As far as my friend goes(the one in prison) I have not heard from him. I am going to try and reach him soon and see what he thinks about moving here and starting his life over. I will keep everyone posted. As far as myself, my job is going great...I am getting out on my own as far as running the jobs go. It really feels good to know that I have folks such as yourself behind me. I really miss my mother... she is 77 years young and I planning on visiting her after the summer slows our work a little. Take acre, be safe and I will post again real soon. I would just like to add that I think about the place I left daily and I am so thankful that I no longer live there and that found the strength to just want better. Love to everyone. "Be Easy!"

    Last edited: Apr 28, 2015
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  14. May102014

    May102014 Active Contributor

    Thank you for having the strength to share your story. It really takes a man to admit a fault or a mistake. It's truly inspiring how you coped up with the addiction and somehow managed to stop,realizing that it's not doing you any good. I can tell you're a good man because you not only think of yourself but also of others. That's the thing we should all do.
  15. Matthodge1

    Matthodge1 Community Champion

    Thank you for sharing your story. I am glad that you were able to face your issues head on. It must have been very tough to come to your family in the way that you did. You are a brave man.