I stopped drinking about 5 months ago - joining AA and avoiding any and every situation which I know would trigger a desire to drink. Best decision of my life and I'm happier now than ever. What finally got me to stop though was when on the morning after being on a three day binge, I woke up with the most intense feeling of fear and worry about the fact that I had wasted such a large chunk of my life being drunk, achieving nothing in the process - going in reverse instead! I was also so intensely depressed I felt like I was going to have a panic attack. All I wanted to do was escape my head to get a way from the pain. It was the first time I could actually sympathize with people who hurt themselves - physical pain might help to escape the psychological pain I was feeling. I didn't go that far at least, and eventually I could calm myself down later in the day, but every now and then, I get similar feelings of guilt, sadness and regret for having been an alcoholic, and I feel smothered by these emotions. Does anyone have a similar experience? Have you found anything to help you get out of it quickly? Like I say, it's normally just in the mornings, and once the day gets going, my emotional turmoil subsides.