ive been dating my boyfriend for about a year and a half, we are both in our 20s. he has depression and anxiety and he refuses to get professional help for it. he constantly misses work because of it and then beats himself up about missing out on the money. he has what one would consider “bad luck” because inconvenient things keep happening to him from his car constantly needing repairs to his phone getting broken often. he gets upset about having to spend money on those things too. recently, he has been so upset and stressed out that he always makes remarks like “i just wish i would get hit by a car, it would be so much easier” “i should just kill myself” and other suicidal things. i always tell him not to talk like that because it upsets me and it’s unhealthy. i have begged him to get help and he says he wants to but i know he’s scared because it’ll make him feel weak. just this past weekend, he confessed to me that he spent hundreds of dollars on cocaine and “thought he overdosed” because he did so much. i know he did this to numb his pain, and possibly to try to die. this has put a huge strain on our relationship because i can’t force him to get help but i love him so much and don’t want to leave him when he’s so low. he tells me he’ll get help “this week” or “soon” constantly but things keep getting worse and worse. i don’t know how to go forward from here.