When I turned 21 I started drinking heavily, it caused my weight to skyrocket. So, I started making myself throw up after eating then drink. I did this for close to a year. It destroyed my health, mostly my dental health. The acid in my stomach caused my terth to rot even though I brushed regularly. I started buying painkillers to help with the constant toothaches and soon began abusing them alomg with alcohol. I had wanted to stop and I wanted to fix my teeth but I didn't have insurance, money or motivation. Until I found out I was pregnant. At first I was sure I'd have to have an abortion because there was no way I'd be able to deliver a healthy baby, I felt it would be the responsible thing to do even though I didn't want to. But, I contacted a crisis pregnancy center in my area and they helped me get on medicaid and visit an OBGYN, he told me the fetus was healthy after an ultrasound. I couldn't drink after I got pregent if wanted to, just the smell would cause me to puke. I even threw up once after watching someone drink on TV. My unborn child motivated me to fix myself so I could have a healthy baby and be the best mother I could. Medicaid covered some dental procedures. I needed 21 fillings and 5 root canals, they didn't cover the canals so I had 3 of the teeth pulled. It caused almost all my pain to stop and any toothache I did get could be fixed with Tylenol. I went through withdrawal very early in my pregnancy, it was a rough few days. Withdrawal and morning sickness combined were awful. I didn't go to rehab because I didn't need to just knowing I was carrying a healthy baby was enough to stop me cold turkey. I gave birth to a prefectly healthy 6 pound 3 ounce baby girl on March 6, 2014. It was rough and I received a 2nd degree tear and was prescribed Oxycodone even though I was breastfeeding. I took less than half of my prescription with no temptation to take more. I spent a year drinking all day, even while at work and combining it with painkillers. I was taking everything from hydrocodone to oxycotin and even snorting them to ease toothaches, hangovers and to get high. Now, I can occasionally have a couple glasses of wine without an urge for more. I named my daughter Echo and she's the best thing that's ever happened to me for many, many different reasons. She's my whole world.