He trusted me with his gear and gave me some as a thank you looking after it. But I couldn't help myself. I weighed out 0.10. Then replaced it with paracetamol from a capsule. Felt awful. But in the morning I did it again. And in the light saw that the paracetamol poweder was shiny. He going to realise what I've done. It gets worse his my neighbor and a very good friend. What have I done? I'm going to lose everything. Once my friends find out they won't be my friends anymore. I've risked everything for a few lines of coke! I don't want to lose my friend. What should I do? This just proves how much help I need I'm ruining my life over this addiction. Should I be honest and come clean and hope for forgiveness? I need help! I need to get clean. I'm using so much now that my kids are being affected because of the amount of money I'm spending. There is no one I can talk to. I feel isolated. And now I've gone and done this. I am a horrible person I never used to be before this addiction
Last edited: Jan 15, 2017