Well, I have been drinking alcohol since I was 14. I am 26 now. For several years, I went through a stage of being blacked-out drunk on a nightly basis. I wouldn't know when to stop, so I would drink as much as possible. Fast forward a few years, and I was tired of it. I ended up "shacking up" with my now-fiance -- this was five years ago. He's not much of a drinker, so I really calmed down. I still drink a lot more than I probably should, but I've gotten a lot better at controlling it. For whatever reason, I'm not ready to let booze go completely, but I am proud of how far I have come. My fiance went through some really bad substance abuse problems as well. He told me when we first got together that he was a recovering cocaine addict, but I didn't realize how bad it was. I thought he was done, but we went through hell and back for several years because he relapsed. He has been clean for several months now, but I'm honestly very nervous that he'll relapse again. I'm hoping to find support here and get to know others who are looking for friends who understand these types of situations.