Hi, I'm 43 and have a husband and a 13yr old boy. I am an alcoholic and opiate addict. I went to rehab in March for a month and was clean and sober for 8 months. During this time l suffered from severe fatigue and head pressure, but not much desire to drink. Then early October l had a bad day, I also suffer from anxiety, panic disorder and major depressive disorder. The automatic thoughts came from nowhere and I took myself off to the little shop to buy a litre of vodka. Since then, I've been on and off with sober days, then binges. I now have really bad alcohol sweats and of course the feelings of quilt and shame because of what I'm doing to my husband and son. Hubby has given me until christmas to sort myself out. I just feel hopeless. Just wanted to say hi, sorry if this post isn't great or posted in not quite the right place. I don't work very well with tech.