My boyfriend of 5 years confessed after I caught him in a series of lies that he was dabbling with meth. He ready had a mild addiction to adderall and it has progressed. We have been working on building trust again and doing random at home drug tests, all he has passed. However, tonight he tells me he wants to check the mail which was out of character. I watch him through the window and see a car drive up with a sketchy guy in it and an exchange happens. He says the guy dropped off money that he owed him. How the hell am I supposed to believe this. He did have money on him though. I have lost all trust. The lies about this guy and drug use are out of control. One after another after another. I am going nuts. I already suffer from anxiety and panic and this is making me feel 100% crazy. I need to talk this out and need to build a support system to figure out what to do.