I'm a mother of three children. I go to work and take care of my kids and convince myself I'm normal but I have an opiate addiction. I've had this for almost six years and have quit during my pregnancies but can't seem to kick the demon on my shoulder completely. My birthday was on Monday and I just found out my boyfriend of years has been cheating on me. He blames it on my substance abuse problem. Going to church helps. I'm just at a really low place and trying to stay sober but my comfort especially after anything hurtful or traumatic happens is pills. I need to be sober for my kids and myself. I feel I've completely lost myself between being an addict and being in a very unhealthy relationship. Here to talk and see if it helps. I've gotten to the point I don't confide in anyone. Just pretending to be normal but deep inside I just keep praying for god to give me strength.