No. You are not cold at all. For the past two years I have dealt with a meth addict fiance. I have never done any kind of drug and I do not drink alcohol. To me, life is challenging enough! To add the burden of drugs and alcohol to it is insanity. I hear former drug addicts saying things like, "you don't know if you've never done it". I think that is the most insane thing to say to someone. There are those of us in this world who don't have ANY desire to EVER put our bodies, brains, and loved one's through any aspect of that. It doesn't make you so terribly different, it makes you the one who CHOSE to do that. Everyone is presented with challenges in life and it's up to each of us to accept them or not accept them. But choosing drugs because you can't hang with adversity is a low level CHOICE YOU made. You found the weakness now you find the STRENGTH and WAKE UP!! Obviously, this is close to home because I have been on the roller coaster from hell for almost two years. I got off the roller coaster but that hell lingers. I'm healing. At first I was mortified to find out what meth was and what is does to you. Then I kicked into support mode. I spent lots of money and time on trying to help him rehab. He was playing it for all its worth. I kept reading on how they're sick and it's a disease. I tried to hold that understanding while staying supportive. What a FOOL I was! I separated myself from him so I could gain my own senses again. Through the broken heart, tears, anger, and complete disbelief...I did not let him come back to my home. I guess I'm telling the same story over. Seems like this is the story of those of us on the other side of this. I'm here to tell you that YOU are okay. You did your best. Everyone makes it about the addict. The addict is the one doing the hurting and wrong!! I get they need help but they also need to get it on their own. Can't force them. I tried. I feel for the families that have to endure the evil that accompanies them when they sell their soul to Satan. I pray for you, the wife who has worried yourself sick and still holds love for a man who chooses his drug over you. They say it has nothing to do with us. When your heart is broken and you've spent money and time on a selfish addict...it IS about you. It's about your heart and pain. Let them go. You are not responsible for a grown man acting like a child. You will near kill yourself if you keep trying. If it's meant to be then it will be but love yourself and get away from the demon. That's what they inhale and inject in their bodies and souls...demons. Get right and close to God, Jesus (Yeshua), Mary (Mìryam), and your angels. I know the pain and it knocks you down. Let the addict go. If they really want to be well then they will find their way to wellness. YOU be well and stay centered. God's light and guidance WILL heal you.