For those that struggle with obsessive thoughts, what do you about it? Whether negative or positive, how do you handle the situation? When I was growing up, I thought I had slight OCD (obsessive compulsion disorder), but I never got help for it, and as I grew up I outgrew a lot of my compulsions. Recently my doctor told me that he thinks I might still struggle from it, so I’ve been trying to work on it now for the first time in my life. [side note, here’s a definition from google: Obsessions are intrusive and unwanted thoughts, images, or urge that cause distress or anxiety. Compulsions are behaviors that the person feels compelled to perform in order to ease their distress or anxiety or suppress the thoughts.] So anyways, this got me thinking how much my addiction and OCD might be connected. I can’t seem to find a reason for why I smoke weed except for the fact that it stops this little wheel in my head that spins and disrupts my thoughts. It’s like there is a broken record player in my head that repeats “smoke or something bad might happen. smoke or something bad might happen. smoke or something bad might happen.” And don’t even get me started on my thoughts when there are benzos in the house. I always saw my addictions as separate issues, but now it’s like they have come into a whole new light and I’m able to understand them just a little bit more, and that’s wonderful for me. I think I really need to try and get back into daily yoga and meditation again. It’s hell at first, I hate being alone with my thoughts, but I only grow from being uncomfortable, and I don’t want to be like this forever (and I also don’t want to revert back to self medicating with drugs and alcohol) so the only way for me to go now, is forward.