Since I got clean I have a certain kind of bad day. I start thinking about everything I did the day before. I can't believe I said what I said or did what I did. When I look at it rationally, I did nothing wrong. When I ask people they tell me I did nothing wrong. But I can't shake this feeling. It doesn't happen very often, but when it does I go out of my mind with anxiety. It feels exactly like it did when I was messed up all the time. Those rare moments of sobriety would cause me to panic like this. Then I would take a drink or a pill and be fine. That isn't really an option anymore. Tomorrow this will have passed and I'll call myself silly. But today I can't bring myself to talk to anyone, and if I'm forced to I'm really short with them. I want to hide from the entire world today. I'm hoping by talking about it here will help it ease up a little bit. Thank you for letting me vent!