My doctors expect me to be addicted to the pain medication. And I do need the pain killers legitimately for moderate scoliosis that is inoperable and likely to get worse plus arthritis that is more like a 70 year old woman than one in her 30's. Both problems are due to a connective tissue disorder that is genetic and progressive. Know what else is also in my genetics? Addiction. A lot of it. For my mother it was alcohol, nicotine, and weed before the doctors convinced her the alcohol would kill here faster than her disease was. She's addicted to the narcotics too...but her life expectancy is pretty short now, so no one is concerned that her medication doses have gone steadily upward and have recently taken a big jump. I'm just on tiny morphine pills twice a day and a prescription for percoset as needed in between. "As needed" are dangerous words because they give me enough for the largest acceptable dose...but do I really need that many? Am I taking enough to take the edge off or enough to really feel good? There's a thin line between long term prescription user and a prescription medication abuser. I'm trying to stay on the right side of that line for as long as possible and it's hard. I feel like I have far too much access and not near enough self control.