I am not really a party girl, and I used to not really get why so many people frown upon youngsters partying hard. It does not concern them, right? I have been to a few parties with my friends. But then I heard from real party people how much money they could blow in one evening (a few hundreds!) and I was flabbergasted. I've lost people to sickness, to suicide, but never to a tendency to be reckless. I cannot imagine how that feels. I'm sorry for your losses.