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Discussion in 'Cocaine' started by Beccaboo4585, Mar 9, 2018.

  1. Beccaboo4585

    Beccaboo4585 Member

    I have a serious cocaine problem. I use almost every day and have for almost awhile now. I need help and I’m embarrassed and I’m not sure who to turn to. I know I’m slowly killing myself and need help. I’m not sure how to go about getting help I’m to embarrassed to tell my mom or my brother or even close friends. My husband does it occasionally as well as a best friend of mine. But I do it everyday and they don’t know that. I know in order for myself to get better I’ll have to ask them to not have it around me. Again I’m too embarrassed to tell anyone. Advice? Please and thank you so much
  2. Dominica

    Dominica Author, Writer, Recovery Advocate Community Listener

    @Beccaboo4585 hey there! thanks for reaching out. it's easy to feel embarrassed, but i encourage you to be open about it. still, if you aren't ready for that, you can maybe reach out for help at a support group.... Narcotics Anonymous... a counselor.... or, if you are really serious about stopping, let them know and check out a detox center/rehab. sometimes in life we just need help. no shame in that. YOU are worth taking the opportunity to get clean...no matter what others think.

    so what if they think something? let them. this is an opportunity for you to step into your power and take responsibility for your well-being.... some people are more apt to get addicted to things.... no shame in that either!

    does this help?
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  3. LondonParty

    LondonParty Member

    Similar story I’m trapped in my secret and it is killing me physically and emotionally
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  4. Beccaboo4585

    Beccaboo4585 Member

    I’m sorry you’re goin through this as well. I’m struggling big time I have opened up to my brother and a friend but neither of them lives here I do so it’s hadd to get the support I need. I decided to try and go to an AA meeting...if you need anything not sure how I could help since I’m struggling myself but I’m here.
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  5. LondonParty

    LondonParty Member

    Tha
    you because you are very kind. I have support around me if I had humility to accept it. Admitting my secret would destroy my wife and my parents who don’t know my shame. Have to battle this alone. I wish yo every success. Take care
  6. Dominica

    Dominica Author, Writer, Recovery Advocate Community Listener

    @LondonParty your continued use may be found out eventually by your family... i always think honesty is the best policy, but i understand your hesitation. are you able to see a counselor?
  7. True concern

    True concern Community Champion

    @Beccaboo4585 @LondonParty I'm new to this website and honestly I'm new to being someone that is willing to share as well as offer advice.Much like the both of you i had issue's with telling my loved one's about my addiction's,much like both of you i told myself i was in this fight alone and that being said i ask you both to read my story about my addiction's for one simple reason,if you keep this fight up alone you will see were that could take you through my post.I spent most of my life as one of the most violently angry individuals alive i thought others were correct when they would say thing's like"your evil,your a loser,your hateful,you have no heart"and i started to believe these thing's,my subconscious accepted that information and drove me like a freight train full of explosive yet through all that i kept my faith in the man above and i have no doubt that he knew that and i believe that is why I'm still alive.I to had to tell my wife about my addiction's but i waited until i was told i had only one month to live and i cant explain how much worse coming clean to her was having to follow it up with if i don't live promise you will re marry and live the happy life i couldn't give you.That was the hardest thing I've ever had to say but i absolutely meant it as she deserves the world in my eye's.I write this a man whom should have died ten year's ago and I tell you these thing's to hopefully highlight the opportunity you have before you,not just for yourselves but for the spouse's you both have and love so dearly.I know you both have what it takes to change your paths its easy to see that in the shame you express,but there is no shame in honesty just opportunity to be true to yourselves as well as the one's you love.
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  8. deanokat

    deanokat DrugAbuse.com Community Organizer Community Listener

    @Beccaboo4585... I just now came across your post. I hope you've reached out for some help from someone. Addiction is a disease, not some kind of moral failing, so you shouldn't feel embarrassed, guilty, or shamed. You're not a bad person who needs to learn to be good; you're a sick person who needs to get well. Let us know how things are going if you get a chance. We care.
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  9. Dominica

    Dominica Author, Writer, Recovery Advocate Community Listener

    @Beccaboo4585 hi there! thank you for sharing.... wondering how you liked the meeting you went to...
  10. True concern

    True concern Community Champion

    @Paulita Everything happens for a reason,in my mind I believe you hitting the "Like" button on 2 of my comments eas some sort of devine intervention, I am a god loving,god fearing man who spends much of my time,much of my life searching for answers to thing's that simply cannot be explained or understood.For the better part of a year I have used this site as a way to find myself,understand why,and try my very best to inspire other's over this past year I have had many up's and down's. I have fought more addiction's than I care to admit and along the way I have encountered some very special, beautiful, wonderful soul's. I was doing so good for most of the year but approximately a week ago I started drinking again. Started off with 2 beer's a night for about 4 night's then I broke 2 turned into 12 and I reach out to a very special few here on the site while in my drunken stupor and they chatted with me and I went to sleep.Thank you dean it meant a lot that you were there for me that night,still yet I couldn't find the inspiration I needed to get my head back in the fight,I didn't drink the next day but I wanted to so very bad and then out of no where I got 2 notifications from you,you didn't say anything to me but you put a like on the 2 post I wrote when I was being STRONG in my fight,I read my post which you liked and it switched my thought process back into the correct position. I said in 1 "Alcohol"Is the real gateway drug,and after I re read that I just sat and thought,I have not been able to sleep since I saw that post again,in the other post you liked I cannot retype it all because it was very long but it was one of my better more sincere post I but a lot of heart into.For this simple act which may have seemed like no big deal at the time you have renewed my spirit,my drive,and my focus to fight my cravings which have honestly not been present since I saw those likes.Basically this is my long way of saying thank you,you have helped me.I have read about your struggle with coke and I will reply to those post next.Stay Strong and God Bless you
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  11. Dominica

    Dominica Author, Writer, Recovery Advocate Community Listener

    @True concern so glad that you're back.... and not drinking. and glad Dean was able to be there for you! This is truly wonderful people helping people!! :)

    alcohol can certainly be a gateway drug... so steer clear... :)

    have a great day!
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  12. True concern

    True concern Community Champion

    I will definitely try,I have come down with pneumonia pretty bad after both my parent's had it last week and though I was drinking at the time I spent all week helping them with their breathing treatments and oxygen mask's as well as getting them up at night because they were choking on phlegm and could not breathe,I assumed I would get it as well for being so near them but they are my parent's and I will always be there to help them when I can so in reality I now see it wasn't time for me to get that job or I couldn't have been there for my family.Family over money for me any day of the week so I believe I am once again at peace with myself I just have to learn to be patient and not try to rush God's plan. @Dominica did you change you're photo and then back again?I think you did but it may be the fever lol.Have a beautiful day you wonderful woman:)
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  13. deanokat

    deanokat DrugAbuse.com Community Organizer Community Listener

    I hope you feel better soon, @True concern. I know you have to take care of your family, but don't forget that you need to take care of YOU, too. Pneumonia is something you have to take seriously. Don't overdo it, my friend. If you go down, the whole ship will go down!

    Love ya. :)
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  14. True concern

    True concern Community Champion

    I have been pretty sick the past few day's but I am on antibiotics and some other thing's the Dr prescribed one of which is Claritan but I haven't been able to sleep in about 3 day's and after reading up on the Claritan today it seems a person with ADHD might not want to take it because it act's as an upper or something all I know is I am so tired like I've been using meth but I definitely have not so I guess I will call my Dr tomorrow
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  15. Dominica

    Dominica Author, Writer, Recovery Advocate Community Listener

    @True concern I just saw this that you were sick... bless it. I hope you're feeling better!! I don't remember changing my profile pic... haha. @deanokat I hope you're feeling better too!!
  16. deanokat

    deanokat DrugAbuse.com Community Organizer Community Listener

    Sorry to hear you've been sick, @True concern. I would definitely check in with your doctor.
  17. True concern

    True concern Community Champion

    You had put up a photo of you that had color in it,it was only up a few hour's or maybe a day and it went back lol.Either that or I had a high fever:confused:
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  18. Liola

    Liola Senior Contributor

    You're sick?
    oh no. Feel better...and
    Happy New Year my friend!
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  19. deanokat

    deanokat DrugAbuse.com Community Organizer Community Listener

    :D
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  20. True concern

    True concern Community Champion

    Yes but I just took my last antibiotic and I am starting to feel a bit better
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