I didn't really know where to post this or even how to start it up to get any follow-up posts. So I'll dive right in.... Has anyone else other than myself and two other people I know noticed that after a major addiction has taken over your life, there is inevitably a change in lifestyles of the addict. Theae are either of two changes. 1- A change for the better and that person goes on and on persuing (from a personal perspective), a betterment of the life they have been so destructively living for so long. 2- A change for the worse and that person is going to end up on the fast track to one of the three places that addiction ends at. Jails, institutions, or death. It's never that an addict is completely taken over by the experience of having your life controled every second of every day and then tbth come out of it the same. Everyone is changed in some way. It's not a matter of opinion, I've given it much thought and it is a fact. Addiction changes your brain molecularly so you wouldn't say that a scar from a burn left you unchanged. It might not show if covered but the scar remains nonetheless. So it is for the addict. And that brings me to my question. What is it that make us few fortunate ones that live through addiction to have a second chance at life to want better things for ourselves? But more importantly, and why I think about this so often for others as well? I can understand wanting to be less selfish and help those who we have hurt so badly, but I find myself being less selfish in almost all aspects of life. And having spoken to many recovering addicts I find this to be a universal truth. Those in meetings that don't have much opinion on this are the ones that relapse. I'm not very far into recovery compared to many but I'll tell you the hell I've been through and not relapsed has proven to me (and my family) that I am permanently an addict in recovery. Going on five months now, .I have a much clearer head than I remember having ever. I'm sure I did of course it was just so long ago it's a new and wonderful feeling. But what's makes us tick....why do we try so hard to kill ourselves with substances but want life so badly? It's not just a new appreciation for something that I can say that I was just seconds from losing. It's so much deeper than that.... Anyone have thoughts on this? And noone think I'm saying that only an addict has this appreciation, I'm not, I'm just looking at it from an addicts point of view.