I never written anything like this before but I want to see if I can get any answers. Before you read more, I want to make it clear that this is a PREEMPTIVE thread. I am not an addict currently but I'm worried that I may become one. I'm 17 years old and since at least age 10 or 11, I've glorified alcohol and alcoholism. I watch countless films and documentaries portraying addicts and I feel an intense sort of sympathy for them. I definitely feel like I could be attracted to one in the future. At the same time, I'm concerned about my own personality. I feel like I do everything to the extreme, everything's always black and white for me. Right now, I'm preoccupied with my schoolwork which I obsess over and spend hours a day on. But, I worry about my future relationship with alcohol. On my 16th birthday, the first time I ever drank, I blacked out and I think got alcohol poisoning. I drank 8 ounces of straight vodka (out of a waterbottle) and don't remember anything else. I haven't drank since then but want to badly. Do you think I have a high potential to become an alcoholic in the future? I'm sorry if this thread is strange but I truly want to know.