I always tell my friends the best recovery is the one laid out by God. It is free! You can pick yourself up a bible anywhere for next to nothing. You can stop in at you local church for free and be around good people. Please do not discount the Lords wish for you to be well. It is all laid out for you, just open your heart and mind to His way and you can be saved (and save some money too!) As well, many churches have free programs that can help you. All you have to do is ask your local church. They can give you the support you need. Did you go to church when you where young? Well I am sure the leaders of that church remember you, and they are one of the few people you can go to in this world that will still welcome you no matter what you have done.