Hi I haven’t posted in a long time but I thought I would just let you all now how I’m getting on, after being sober like 2 years I Relapsed me and my partner had just split after being together 4 and a half years so my head wasn’t straight not only that but t was my birthday so went out to celebrate even though I didn’t feel like it! I some how bumped into an old friend who uses and he offered me a line which I declined but after asking a couple more times I broke and I could have said no like It didn’t have that hold anymore but now it was like self punishment after a night of the same old I didn’t feel too bad e.g come down my head was full of crap to do with my ex! The next week I went out again and this time I was back I had a drink and I wanted to get high so I did, but again it really didn’t have the same buzz to it like it use too the come down that night and the next day was horrendous! The truth is addiction is a life battle and it was the first time I had been tested in over year and although I lost the battle I’m still going to win the war! I just have to relay on myself 100% from now on!